I'm really glad, that I managed to let some things go today. I don't know, but I think I owe part of it to the play there was during morning assembly. And that, I don't know, I can remember that I'm not alone in my plights. That no one is truly alone, no matter how lonely it feels. Inch by inch, I'm finding my happiness again(: I won't lie, talking to Hearts last night, helped a lot. I think it just reminded me that my journey does not have to be ventured alone, and that I'm not the only one that has problems; that I'm just not alone (:

The play in school just reminded me, for the 1000th time I've been saying, that behind every person, there's a story. I think I learnt the hard way in secondary school that I cannot judge a person - not from what I hear about them, or what I think about them just from looking at them. People are different, and the world's just too messed up for us to not accept this fact. Different. That's what makes us so special. Never judge, cos no matter how happy, or popular or wonderful a person may be, they face a struggle of their own everyday. We should help one another.

I think if anything, that's what I'm gonna try to do. Help other people with their struggle through life, and hope someone helps me through mine. No one should feel lonely, or helpless. If it means being quiet, I will. If it means helping them with their work, I will. If it means just listening, I will. If it only takes a smile, I'll smile till the cows come home (:

I am no Barack Obama, but at least if I can't change Healthcare (haha), I can at least try to make it easier for the people around me. Especially my family. Sigh I won't lie, I am the most horrid person to my family sometimes. They say that you should treat your family with a lot of care because they're the ones who'll love you with all your flaws, but I take for granted that you can just screw them over sometimes simply because...they'll love me back eitherway. Twisted right? Sometimes I realise that I just make up excuses. Especially when it comes to my parents. I know sometimes I truly believe that they deserve whatever comes their way, but I just got to learn to forgive. Sure, forgetting is never gonna happen, not by a longshot. But like I really have to get some closure. kakak, you too. Or else, I don't think I'll be able to make a life for myself.

Treat those around you better, jans. Maybe things will be different for you too (:

Funny how much better I feel after just laughing, letting loose and letting life happen.

i miss my brother and my sister lots.. my sister most.

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