If there's no one beside you, when your soul embarks, then I'll follow you into the dark. Haha, DCFC is simply, brilliant. Anyways, I've been wallowing in darkness and the corners of the twisted for way too long. I think that spending too much time alone, becomes really unhealthy. Besides, being awake at ungodly hours and irregular sleep patterns - NOT GOOD.

So, how's life been? A lot of funny moments, really. Thanks to hearts, wengs, jo, fatz, (well most of the people i've interacted with in the past week!) A lot of smiles too, thanks to the BHC. I'm hoping to meet Man soon. <3

So much heartbreak going on, in this period. Permanent heartbreak for some, temporary for others. It makes me very sad to see my friends in pain, even the ones who've been in pain since march (i think) - it still pains me to see her cry so much, so sad and so vulnerable. I really hope I've been of some help, though I think nothing in reality can truly aid a heart in pain. That's the worst part, isn't it? The fact that nothing can cure heartache, but the one that caused it in the first place? Hugs, all around, for the broken hearted people. I think we spend plenty of time thinking we're alone, but really, no one really is. I just hope, especially for her, she finds someone soon, to make it all better.

I lost a whole monday today. Lost it. Like time that I can never take back. All because I felt like life had handed me pain in a platter. Haha. But, I'm back up again. After spending about 18 hours in bed, most of it sleeping and reading Anna Karenina (amazingly a really nice read. Amazing so far.) I finally got my butt moving. Went with the father to NEX mall buying some groceries, in my PJs. TO MAKE EVERYTHING JUST A TAD MORE AWESOME, I bumped into like 6/7 SA boys that I knew (shawn, jingkai, ben, leonard etc) WHILST IN MY FREAKING PJs. Yes, it's my fault for wearing my PJs out of my house. But I couldn't help it. I wasn't in the best of moods, and the mall was so near! Haha, but yes, I felt superbly embarrassed. Like, red faced embarrassed. Hahaha. Shit happens, deal with it!

Life's not perfect, but, I figure, it's the best thing that will ever happen to me.

So make the best out of it, right?

Prom was a few days ago, and well, safe to say, at least for the most part, I felt that compared to sec 4 prom, I looked the way I had wanted to. Haha, so yes, for the most part I am very pleased with myself. I mean the journey to prom was kinda frustrating cos well, having to stretch your dollar is not a very fun process. Hahah, but thanks to my fairygodfather and to my parents for making it all the better. Prom and Post-prom was good (or at least the best it could be) thanks to all the lovely people. I am really thankful and grateful for my class. I couldn't thank God enough for letting me meet these people, all amazing and unique in their own way.

To think that I am done with school and everything, is still kind of, well.. scary. Haha.

I've been feeling very... apprehensive of late. And might I say a little frustrated perhaps. It just feels that I have a lot of pent up emotions in me, and I need some sort of release. Like a nice cheerful activity that won't cost me money. Hahaha. Not that I don't have anything to be thankful for, but as of late I feel worn down, and forgotten. Does that make sense? Yea, forgotten I guess. Unappreciated. Whatever the word is, it's the same feeling.

I miss you a lot, adelaida hassan. It's days like these where I feel like sitting with you at the airport burgerking sipping on large ice lemon tea, just talking, feeling loved and understood. I wish you didn't have to be so far away :( Sigh, I'm being so silly.

toodles.

I've been baking. On saturday, I just woke up and decided that I was gonna bake and I did. Chocolate chip cookies. Chewy and soft. Cos that's the way he likes it. And I made them palm sized! You know like how Subway cookies are like? They were really yummy. But I don't eat cookies. But I love baking. It felt good to do something, just because I wanted to. Without a care in the world for whether I had something else I should be doing. Nothing else mattered, but what I wanted. So after that, I cooked! Pasta. Farfalle pasta topped with creamy tomato portobello sauce. Okay, that was realllly delicious. And I still had some leftovers in the fridge today, so basically I'm a happy camper. Today also I baked - brownies. I couldn't find my tray so I made them in cupcakes. And topped them with nutella. This was undoubtedly sinful. I really would like to share it with people. Perhaps I should just walk around randomly and come up to people asking them if they would like some. Heh. Sounds fun.

Saturday night was lovely. Okay, towards the end, the night could've been better. But regardless, it started out awesomely. Especially since I was with my girls. <3 Right now, in the midst of enjoying my life thus far, I've actually got a very legitimate worry about my employment status. I need the money to keep up my hedonistic lifestyle of post A levels. So... sigh. Prom's this coming thursday. Exciting, I guess. But my mind is too busy thinking about other things that's been on my mind to worry about such a trivial thing like prom. C'est La Vie.