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I forget myself sometimes. I guess when i'm caught up in the whirlwind of change, work, life; i lose myself to it all, and forget what is it that makes me feel so great inside. What makes my days, and what makes me smile. Trying to impress people, trying to be what others want me to be - you forget. But i think, i found myself yet again.

One thing that makes me feel so at peace - music. Good, soulful, meaningful music. Books and movies, too. Its all good.

Its the second day of the holidays - i've got so much to do, i hope that i can finish it all up, and study; especially since common tests are just around the corner. This bug of procastination, is simply infectious. I need it to go away. NOW.

Besides all that, there's so many things going on in life. Like the chorale concert that was on friday.

It was great, i was so proud of myself, and my fellow choristers. Pieces that i had only learnt several days before the concert, like Pater Noster, Irish Blessing , I managed not to screw it up. Though it wasn't 100% perfect, it was very close, and for that i truly am happy for us all (: Not to mention the fact that my family and friends did come to attend my concert - namely Kwoi, Cheang, Nitin, Jojo, Haresh & Chin Tau. It really did make my day, and when they gave me flowers too! I was in joy! It was a pretty good night.

After our concert debrief on saturday, i went with Shelley and kenny around town, and we watched a movie, whatnot. We had a good time, and i am pretty happy to find someone, living life in the same frequency as i do.


Life is just so weird sometimes. I mean truly, it gets you thinking of the most unpredictable of things - and yet it sets you back down, ground you. I can only wish for good things to happen to me, from this moment on; but of course, nothing in this life is truly constant. So, let things come my way, good or bad. I am prepared to brace it all, staying true to myself and with the sincerity of my heart.

I am, jannah. And i hope that today, you too will find yourself, and always stay true to yourself, now on. Embrace the day, and embrace life.

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What you waiting for?

I will NOT blog about my fun-filled weekend, BUT about this horrid fucking day. i swear, if it gets any worse, i'd commit suicide. AH.


omg i've got so much work to do still. shit. adios. back to top?

SYAF!: hahah, yes i love you too love!!! and hmm, its okay, i'll be fine lah, AND yes i still have you!! :D . YES omg lah that question is so. hahahahhahaah. No worries, we're always there for each other anyways!

sofia: HAHAH yea YOUR WELCOME love! haha, just thought you deserved it lah! JIA YOU tmr aite!!

kwoi: OMG lah, you really flood like, freaking TSUNAMI sia!! HAHAH, love you LOADS too manx! and and hahaha, lol i knew you'd miss my presence online!

Adilah: HAIX, yeah man, we soooo wished we could've watched the match! that's just depressingly sad, stoopid talk! haha, yes i colour the world around me *kembang* joke joke! man, you hang in there aite!

EDMUND: hahah no lah she never murder me! she LOOOOOVES me too much! hahah and yea, hot hot hot hot!!! :D

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Oh dear me.

Hmm, i think there's so many non-school related issues AND school related issues that bother me so much, and so many things going on in my life for now.

- i got into house council!
- i am prepping for my choir concert, pre u sem and well *whispers* common test. soon.
- met the lovely people of my life: Adel, syafiqah, yirong, Isa!
- been watching some really cool youtube vids. Which was pretty sad. oh man. I'm just loving the nasyids of my past; its like NOSTALGIC!
- i have just been asked the most quizzical question : are you... ?
- AND my friends are having a ball just teasing me about it. thanks. hahah
- ANQI knows why i was super happy in the morning. i felt sooo sporty. ahahah
- stood at the cooooolest place at rugby match.
- which also happened to be a dangerous place.
- i love the ruggers, win or lose.
- apparently isa misses us. that bully misses us. AWWWWWWWWWWWW. hahah
- i am dreading jc life more and more.
- pre u sem will clash with the holiday timetable.
- i was in a CRAPPY mood for econs; i was just so UGH at the days we were coming back for lessons, cos it felt so late in the month, and i really just wanted to get started on econs.
- my voice is a runaway i think. Mr tay and mr yeo gonna murder me. chop me into bits. PLEASE come for my funeral.
- i'm not going to prague.

i think i've hit one of my not so unique all time lows. i'm just sad.
sad, angry, unhappy, angry, disappointed, angry.. oh did i mention angry?


nothing i say here is gonna make the situation better. i know that. so details are for dumdums.

will you be there,
when i need that shoulder to cry on.
who would
life is tragic.
but i am no hero,
fallen from grace.
i've seen the pits
of misery and pain. what permits me
these emotions?

who am i, after all
this
while?
I can go on smiling,
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She loves you, yeah, yeah, yeah

Oh dear. I have been given a really great birthday present and i swear, it had me in tears. Sofia sofia sofia sofia. Oh. For once i think i am truly speechless. I mean, its cheesy, but i really cannot come up with words that'd adequately bring across my emotions. I just love that blogpost.

aiye. I'm not very good at this, but i'll try.

This is for you, cos you always did one for each one of us, so i think you deserve one too!



This one's for you love.

You're the first ultimate fan of Friends i've ever met.




and i think like what they had in the show,
that's what we have.




You have an imagination that goes beyond, er, imagination.




And deep down inside, we know you love him truckloads more.

i of course am a Bloom fan. 'nuf said.



We share the same appreciation for god's greatest gifts ;D




and you can't help but love him!




And we take our childish fun really seriously




You know who he loves, what girls he loves, and how we love him !!
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Live with it, bitches :D



You have the best one-liners that kick-serious-ass!




and the SMASHING sense of humor!



You're in love, and i only want it to be the greatest love you could ever have



I don't care what you say, i don't care what they say, but in my heart,



I really do.

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Just Fine!

OKAY i have noooooooooooot been updating the pictures like i promised to. Man i've got a lot of pictures to update and its just gonna pile up. AND yet, i'm not gonna update the picture today. *groans in the background (?)* Chill, i will.... someday.. yeap. hahah

Okay, so how has life been thus far. Hmm my birthday as previously mentioned has been pretty alright! :D I heart my friends, they've been really sweet and all!

Friday, we went to watch WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS (which by the way, i think everyone should watch, damn funny! BUT i just don't like seeing primary school kids watching these movies, cos the humor is kind of beyond their level of maturity.) Which was great. I was so into the movie, i think i scared the rest of them (being Nitin, Kwoi & Cheang). I mean there was one part i was so pissed i threw popcorn in the character's direction BUT before ANYONE say anything - WE WERE SEATED at the UTMOST front of the cinema, as in the actual first row. YEah, BUT I think it was a cool movie experience. (: hahaha. Anyways, yeah, i looooved the movie!

FRIDAY was also the day a serial crasher came! And i made a new friend (: Kwoi's friend from cj, craaashed sa, & i think he's the super pro kind lah please!

ANYWAYS.

FRRIDAY was also the CEDAR connect day! So me, syaf and worm met each other at PS first - BUT of course worm hasn't arrived, so we went around shopping! I got syaf a top i think looks really good on her! :D hahaha, ohoh, and WHAT THE HELL, talk about a twist of fate! I MEAN, in sec four we had the angel&mortal thing but our class' version was MACBETH&ladymacbeth. SO we all knew i was her macbeth. TURNS OUT, she was mine too! hahahaha ROFL and she tooook so long to tell me summore! >.< hahah

{okay i just realised i've been dragging my vowels, as in spelling like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiis! hahah imagine me dragging the word then as its read!}

So yeah, after that i bought a top too at cotton on! Which was very nice to my p.o.v... Anyways so worm brought me a donut "cake"! from the wonderful munchy donuts!! THE TWO OF THEM SUPER CUTE! but we had great fun anyways, sitting at an ulu corner of somewhere in ps, buying my pink fbts, going back to cedar... miss the days when we were always together!

LOVE!

gotta go attempt to do work.
okay, SOME pics!





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Chasing Pavements?
happy birthday to me.
I'm seventeen.

woo.

this year is an all time low, but somehow, i'll learn to just stop caring (:

LOVE LOVE to, (lets see if i can name everyone.)


saints
chee yang, kwoi, jojo, nitin, imma, chester, samuel, eunice, delia, jeg, luqman, chin tau, haresh, marissa, xunqi, sinyee, zenda, sweeney, esther, natasha, andrea, andrina, arihant, crosby, (i'm sure karan too..hahah), ms hon, mr chua, ms lee, Elfarina, amalina, rosazlin, ronald, elizabeth, donovan, charmain, naveen, subeer, shermaine, shermin, tiffy, sabby, sabby's friends, gitu, nadiah, firqin, maithili, nadia, wati, WEIDA :D... I can't remember anymore. i'm sorry if i missed you out, but if i remmeber i'll edit aite (:

everyone else

KINGS - Thekingofidiots - uma!
- Thekingofblur - syafiqah!
- Thekingoflame - sofia!
- Thekingofcrap - Yirong!

ADEL, iffah, kikin, irsyaad, CACA, fila, tine.




LOL, i can't remember anymore. i'm like so zoned out today........

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Nine in the afternoon

Oh, i've decided i really one of 2 things (one or the other) for my birthday.

-> a macbook air
-> a nikon slr camera.

i'm not kidding. But also, idle dreams, wishful thinking. Hmm, if i got a 32gb IPOD touch, i won't mind. BUT like i said, NEITHER of ther are real things i'm gonna get. Like HELLO. But, if i could dream a million dreams; these are just 3 of the things in my dreams.


Other than that.
oh my, i really give up. They are the cause of a lot of my pain, they anger me, they are the reason i shed most of my tears. I give up already, i'm no longer gonna bother. HAIX the thing is, i know deepdown i care so much. >.<


overwhelming emotions.
my holga's sick.

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Bebot.

THIS IS effing funny.




WATCH IT MAN! HAAHAHAHAHAHA

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PUMP IT!

O. My. God.

Lol, since our class gets to watch the SAJC vs ACJC rugby match (its like the clash of the titans! WOOOOHOO!), so i told isa! AND this mister made my day!

HE'S EFFING JERSEY IS MY FAVVVVE NUMBER! HAHAH

hahah omg lah, we used to argue about which number was hell loads cooler! He was a Six, and now he's yours truly's most fave number! :D

gahh, i'm so cheap thrill!

ahahah

jia you isa (: do well. i swear i think posting this will get me flamed by other saints. IF they give that much shit, lah.

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My baby don't mess around because she loves me so, and this i know for sure...

I had choir today. IT WAS fun! hahaha, i swear, i had an interesting time staying afloat with all the songs, not letting the tenors&basses screw up my pitch! ahahah, well i take a while to learn, BUT HOPEFULLY i can prepare in time for the concert!!!!!!

MAY 23rd 2008, SAJC CHORALE, VICTORIA CONCERT HALL, $12

This is my attempt at, discretely promoting. HAHA, right.

Anyways, omg i've been buying the most BEAUTIFUL things! I got myself some notebooks from page one @VIVO (which are BEAAAAooootiful!) and i bought a pair of SUNNIES from outfitters at j8! WOOTS! It was cheap! I mean, it was from, $35 and they dropped it to $15, so yeah, i'm happy!


BUT thanks to CELESTINE, i am really currently obsessed with shades from http://green-poppies.livejournal.com/34539.html#cutid1

REALLY obsessed.

MY *****DAY is coming...


*BIG HINT!*


hahaha lol, actually no. i just really really think they're HOT! haix.


Oh, choir's going to prague in december! WOOTS, and well i'm excited! It's for the annual christmas festival held in the city of prague so i'm EXXCIIITEED! i hope i get all the subsidies, or i'll have trouble getting the money. >.<

hmmm, any birthday wishes of the year?

yeah loads. But well, i try not to beg. ahahaha

actually there is one, that i'm happy most of the time, won't be clouded with so many thoughts and hopefully life will keep all the shitty issues at bay, just for me.

yeah.

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I think i wanna fucking die now. My head hurts to high heavens, I'm on the verge of vomitting, if i could i'd scream my pain away.


HAIX, i don't even know how i suddenly feel so sick.

But the worst part is, though i have already acquired the freaking holy green slip, i have to RETYPE my pi, cos of some stoopid mistake, and i can't find the file, so i swear i mean, RETYPE.

just shoot me.

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