I just really want to see KWOI bowl today. I really do. Curses to the people who deny us this right. hahaha melodrama much.

But really though, with only 11 minutes left to 11.30, the likeliness of our class being able to watch the bowling match is close to zilch!The thing is, we really really really want to. WE went to mr chay (is that how its spelt?) so many times. zomg. if we don't get it, i think i'll be sulking for chem, pw, and gp.

sheet.

i mean shit. hahah

oh man.

anyways, KWOI, may the force be with you. May your average be as high as the skies, may you break the splits as prettily as possible.

Haix. Even cheang wasn't feeling well and so he got a greeeeen slip. The utterly HOLY slip of paper that is in the eye of every student. The one thing that warrants an early leave from school.


How depressing. I am not looking forward to any of my subs. Today is a very distracting day. Yesterday, was truckloads better. Truckloads.

i've got so much i want to say, to curse and just to swear. But. as always, A gracious cedarian. back to top?

I MISS YOU SYAFIQAH.

MY DAUGHTER, MY SYAF!, MY TEENPHANTOM, MY LADY MACBETH!!! , MY TKOB!, MY little "adik", MY ONE AND ONLY! , MY i-think-i'd-be-weirded-out-jealous-when-OHYOUKNOWWHY .

STOP emoing before i sound anymore gay!

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Stuck in a moment you can't get out of..

I wonder if anyone actually realises that the titles (currently) of most of my blogposts are song titles. Heh.

Anyways, i think i found a better way to spell my name. That is, S-C-R-E-W-E-D. From all angles, in every direction; i'm so screwed. Well, its actually cos of PUS, i mean its not that it sucks or anything (not exactly) but its the whole, preparation of our stuffs. I actually did take the key points of what was given to us in the research document, but i don't know about the other two. In a way, its good, cos that what he wants; atleast as interpreted from the email. BUT its actually cos i was too, er, incapable to come out with anything original. But like i said, its kind of what he wanted anyways, so thats alright.
I think what made me feel like finding some thick rope to wrap around my neck was the whole putting together of the ACTUAL ppt. NOT that its, hard, i guess but its gonna take a while, A LONG effing while. I hope we don't get overly ambitious (as always). HAHAHA, anyways, we get shot down so many times, i think i actually have holes in my body, randomly dispersed all over.

Anyways, the college drama was great. It was entertaining.. wasn't so much of like broadway or anything, but it was adequate and pretty different. And entertaining.

I love my class. Didn't i say that before? Yeah, well its very true. They're the bunch of people i don't think i could forget, anytime soon. Hahah, they'd be on the top of my guestlist at my wedding, i bet (:


Anyways, i'm so confused about some things in life. So confused i end up crying myself to sleep. Yeah, not that i've never done that before. Eitherway, kak intan was right. Its hard. Kakak is also right, its really hard. I don't think many people will ever understand the problem that I face. As i told my brother, "You will never ever face the problems that i have to face". Okay, well i didn't tell him lah, but i sure thought about it in my mind. I mean, i just am too tired to talk about it with him. Him of all people who would never come close, not even by a dragon's breath, to understanding how i feel.

I wonder why i care so much. I wonder why others simply don't. I wonder if by caring, does that put me in a different position as them? Or because i'm caring, it just brings me back to square one; the same four boundaries that they too are bound in.



I'VE GOT a meeting in the morning at ten. If i don't get to the national library by 10.05, i'm buying breakfast, apparently. Shit, better bring my wallet!

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I'm running away.. I'm leaving this place..

Why do i feel like i am still the same person i was several years ago? Lost in my own identity, unsure of who i am. This was something that was supposed to be solved in the earlier years of my adolescence, wasn't it? I look around, and i see people who are clear of themselves, who are sure of their future, who are able to make choices, cos they know where its gonna lead them.

I am so scared. Scared of being the same person that i was. Scared that i'm gonna screw up what i've got. Scared that if they meet me, or see some sides of me, that i won't be accepted. I am so cautious with how i behave when i'm around others. I'm afraid that if i do not control myself, i'll slip up and they'll see something that they don't like and later ditch me to the side. I like to believe i am strong, but when i think about it, i reall am not. People who know me long enough, know that i'm a little paranoid about these stuff. Is it because, i'm the youngest in my family? I have no idea why such things affect me so, but it just does. I envy those who are able to overcome this feeling.

Why do i care so much, of what other poeple think of me?

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I never got to make this choice on my own, so i think it affects my perceptions on it. I try so hard, to be strong, to tell myself it doesn't matter, to tell myself its something i should be proud of, but yet again, i falter to my flaws; i envy her, the one who does it with such pride, the one who makes me feel ashamed. Ashamed of every thought that i had. It is a must, but many people don't begin when they have to, but come to it when they want to. I never had that chance, so part of me tells me yes, the other part tells me, but what if..? The ones who got to make this their own personal decision, they usually don't have to think about this sort of things anymore.

As i think these thoughts, i am so ashamed. After all, it is a test of my faith, and yet, i seem to have failed. What's worse is that other people will never understand the beauty of my faith, but see it from what they think it be, not what it really is. And this stand that i am unable to take with two feet in the water, doesn't help the situation be any clearer.


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Fake tales of San Fransisco..

How blooodeh unfair.
PISH posh.

HOW COULD i have fallen sick on such a WOOHOO kind of day?! Really man!

How many people did i sms? Imma, Cheang, Jo, Cheryl (gomes house capt), Ms Hon, Marissa..
I mean, i had to of course, especially so that whatever responsibilities i had were not left hanging in the air!!! Hmm, yeah i had to learn it the hard way.

According to Kwoi, Nitin produced a good speech, and that since we have to vote for 9 out of the 11 nominees, he's kind of a shoo-in? (Btw is that how its spelt?) YAY, I'M SO PROUD OF HIM!!! NITIN, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I'M VERY PROUD OF YOU! I HOPE I'VE BEEN GOOD HELP, AND THAT WHEN YOU'RE IN SC YOU'LL NOT FORGET MEEEEEE! HAH, it sounds like he's going to win an Oscar or whatnot. Another bummer. I DONT GET TO VOTE! seriously, to everyone i promised to vote for, sorry manx...


anyways, i might be returning to school later, cos like i have my House Council Interview!!!AAAAHH! I smsed cheryl and she told me she'd get back to me about it! HAIX. when i come back, everyone else will be..GONE!

dots.


oh well. i better do some work or it'll be a waste of such a good day!

some pictures to brighten up your day. Us bullying a sleeping haresh, cheang looking psycho, GOMES!





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How wonderful life is, while you're in the world..

So today, must have been the most emo day our class has ever ever faced.
if you weren't there, lucky you.

Anyhow, today started off okayish. Hmm this feels like a very off place to start off with. Okay, i'll start with the night before.

Sports day, as lovely as it was, i think tired me shitless. Not just physically, but i feel mostly, mentally. So at about 7.15pm, i took my longest sleep yet in a school week; i slept till 6.30am the next day! (OH, actually i woke up at 5.30am, but i hugged my pillow head towards the bed, knees to my chest, back up towards the ceiling REFUSING to get out of my bed!) ELEVEN HOURS! and to think when i woke up, my maths tutorial was on my table, everything NOT in my school bag.. HAIX! I mean i really wanted to study for maths, that was the whole idea. But like i've said a million and one times'; in my room, my bed is law :D

ANYWAYS, so today we had the maths test EGAD! i mean, its like i really hope with whatever brain i have left i can pass it! I dont wanna fail it lah, but i was going without my brain for this test. Really.

After that, it was nothing much; just break.. I found my self smiling to the madrasah twins again; I STILL HAVE NO IDEA WHO IS WHO! rawr! I mean, if its the OTHER, he must be like, okay, psycho girl... hahhahaha. H1 lit was super funny. MS zhou as always is super cute! ahahah and she's like, especially funny and fun-er today! HMM, plus she seems to look in han's direction all the time! 0.o UHoh! hahahahah

But the most interesting part about the schoolday was ofcourse, econs lecture.>.<

I'm not pissed. There are a million and one things i get pissed at, and this just didn't make it under the radar. I wasn't too happy standing in the cc with everyone watching us like we've got cages place in front of us (I told marissa this!! ahahha, Look all you want, i'm not gonna roar!) just a bit throwface. Plus i'm like a freaking lost and blind chicken in every lecture, so standing wasn't my forte at being more attentive. Lol! hahah, wahh, i managed to understand her today! Weirdly enough, this caused a lot of tension between many in class. I'm not angry (even if i was, it's shortlived), i'm just not that type ah. I'm only a show-er of anger to people i'm especially close to; kings, del..not to forget my family. HAHAH. so smile lah, chill, everyone. breathe, and chill. This is the already gone hippie era that i'm trying to bring back, you know?

Anyways, haix. i hate saving. But then again, i save for everything. Almost lah. I hate asking my parents for money. And i generally don't, considering my allowance is officially off the roof; my dad gives me as much cos i'm the only one schooling. Haix. AMAZINGLY my money doesn't go to me all the time. I'm always lending money to people. All the time. Either that or paying stuff for them first. I think the amount of money still owed to me since secondary school is like almost $200+? yeah. Oh well. Anyways. I HOPE TOMORROW IS A BETTER DAY. smile all!

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As usual..

Oh boy. Today was.. Sports Day. Since i'm running for house council GOMES! GOMES!, i had quite a lot to do. It wasn't like WHOA. But it was adequate. Heh:D We did loads of running around!
Yesterday, Wati, Pamela and myself made our way down to PS, to find for stuff to de-bare-ify our house for today, i.e we were trying to find for stuff to make us look not so bare lah, considering we had, er, that night itself to prep for today! GASPETH! lol, but it was good, we kept to BUDGET! We had dinner together too! But considering we only left school after discussing about Gomes at about 7plus, by the time we finished dinner, it was already 9PM. Oh my gosh. And i reached home at ten. BUT OF COURSE, this is in no way anything in comparison to many of my friends; the ruggers, the band peeps, the dancers, and what nots, they get home uber late like this all the time. I have such great respect for them, to get home late and still be able to open their textbooks and go to school the next day. Seriously.

I digress. Anyways, so we had to be in school by 6.45am! You have noooo idea how worried i was, i mean considering i don't leave too far from school, and that i have my dad sending me before continuing to drive his taxi, i wake up at 6.30am on average every morning. (I have woken up at.. 6.50/7.00am and still made it in time for school before!) So i was like, ahhh, cannot CANNOT be late. So i set like, 6 alarms on my handphone, and i think because my soul was so anxious, i woke up at 5.50am. Hah, BUT because my mom woke up later, i still didn't get to go off early. I was.. i think 2 minutes past 6.45am? yeah, but it was okaylah. Not reprimanded or anything.

Anyways, after dressing up our 'territory' with all that we could (hah! we were lucky we could re-use LOADS of the cny stuff) we did the face painting, hair spraying (WHICH by the way, does anyone know where the can is? WE realllly want it back!)...I must say, gomes wasn't tooo bad. I mean, from all the past experiences and whatnots, i heard usually j2s won't be bothered to cheer or anything, but it was okay :)

Well. I'm tired>.<
I gotta study. but i need some sleep first.

Oh, and i should be more grateful for everything God has given me. Others have it harder, who am i to be complainsome?
alhamdulillah.

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Oh my goodness.

If you haven't watched it, you must. Across the Universe. Its just so beautiful. The music, the love, the hate, the war, the love.


Hahah, like i needed to fill my head with more thougths of love.


Love!
ps: i hope monday will be good. My ankle doesnt twist well. I hope i don't injure it! again. back to top?

OVERALL, this week was a pretty bad week. The overwhelming emotions, the lovesickness, the paranoid thinking, missing the people i really love, and somewhat, my utter stupidity.

what the hell were you thinking, you didn't even read properly first, before doing what you did, dummy

I think the music i listen to adds to my down-ness. MUST LISTEN TO HAPPIER MUSIC.

On other things:

i think econs test wasn't TOO bad. Like if i do fail (which is likely) at least i wont be failing TOOOO bad.
Mrs cheng is the cutest thing in the world. EVERYONE has to whistle when you're around her.. you'll know why!
Perbayu seniors are cool!
I finally had the oppurtunity to talk to the madrasah twins. HAH, okay, ONE of them, BUT i still can't tell which is which, so i keep on tapping on the WRONG twin's shoulder!
Chee yang trust my music taste, ergo I'VE GOT GREAT TASTE IN MUSIC.
AND JOJO too of course! (I KEEP ON FEEDING THEM WITH SONGS!)
Ms hon says my pi isn't too bad, and i managed to edit it in time on friday!
I think my two braids are cute! (ego moment, ego moment!)
My class rocks big time!
Aerosmith's "I don't wanna miss a thing" is the most universal song ever - EVERYONE was singing it during song dedication at the caf!
The Zenners outing is coming, and kings have also planned an outing.
I'm running for house council.
Shopping with kwoi was good, rushed, adrenaline pumping and fast. NEVER AGAIN kwoi, no speed shopping;)
I cry all the time watching armageddon, i'm gonna watch it again and again.
SWEENEY TODD is the darkest creepiest movie ever!
And yeah, the M18 was well placed.


Yeah. Oh, i'm doing this thing for my class, i hope they like it, and don't look at me funny. I'm doing it cos its just one of those things i do for friends (tho i rarely do it for a WHOLE class) and its just me doing something sweet. Maybe cos i'm also welfare rep? Well, i just hope they like it.

And hmmm oh yes i remember, i found this thing on several blogs already, it has tempted me to do it, so here goes!

MUSIC thoughts!
How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
Paolo Nutini - Last Request
Oh wow, its pretty true. Grant my last request and let me hold you, don't shrug your shoulders.. lay down beside me

Will you get far in life?
Stacey Kent - What a wonderful world
Haha, okay, that's optimistic for you.

How do your friends see you?
McFly - Please Please
Hahah okay, i don't think thats really how they see me Please please.. i wanna get with you haha yeah i think not.

Will you get married?
Christina Aguilera - Dirrty.
HAHAH I'M NOT EVEN GONNA BOTHER COMMENTING ON THAT! Give all you got, just hit the spot, gonna get your girls, get your boys, gonna make some noise

What is your best friend’s theme song?
Aly & AJ - Potential Break Up Song
Hahah, i hope not man!

What is the story of your life?
Russel Watson - When I fall in love
rofl. seriously, ROFL. Like, omg, how true!

What was high school like?
Tracey Wood - Falling off a log
yeah, we were so nuts we couldn't even balance properly!

How can you get ahead in life?
Christina Aguilera - Get Mine, Get yours
uhoh, i hope not. Sounds so, all for one's self

What’s the best thing about your friends?
Good Charlotte - I don't wanna be in love
HAHA, cos i love my friends too much, one guy can't beat that sorta love!

What’s in store for this weekend?
Sheila On Seven - Berhenti Berharap (Stop hoping)
Okay, that's harsh. Reality, Reality

Describe your grandparents.
Ciara - Get on the Dancefloor
Hahah, as far as i'm concerned my grandma is the COOLEST person ever! Only one i got to know tho ):

How’s your life going?
Seven - (shit, its written in korean in my ipod)
haha, okay, as far as the song goes, life sure does feel that way.

What song will they play at your funeral?
Big Bang - VIP (intro)
HELL YEAH! I'm effing cool thats why!

How does the world see you?
Good Charlotte - Keep your hands off my girl
hm. I have no idea what to say, i swear!

Will you have a happy life?
Ashley Tisdale - He Said She Said
hmm.. rumor has it?

Do people secretly lust after you?
The All American Rejects - Move Along
HAHAH! rofl :D

How can you make yourself happy?
The Klaxons - Magick
Okay. i bet if i can do magic i'd be so happy

What should you do with your life?
Tracey Thorn - Grand Canyon
There's two things i read: 1) TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL! 2)errr. die, cos like the grand canyon's all cliffy and i get vertigo-ish!

Will you ever have children?
Paola DeAnda - Easy
HAHAH, okay, either it means i'm gonna have a shotgun wedding or it just means that EASY qn, of course..

What song would you strip to?
YoungBloodz, Sean Paul - U Ain't Know
LOL i swear its gonna be really hard to strip

What does your mum think of you?
Michael Buble - Lost
Of course(: She's my mom anyways. You are not alone, i'm always there with you, and we'll get lost together... love you ma.

What is your deep, dark secret?
Sugar Babes - Push The Button
Sorry, but the guys i like have never really been a deep dark secret. BUT for the ONE, if you're ready for me boy, you better push the button or you'll never know my secrets

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
The Velvet Underground - I'm sticking with you
I can't remember who's my mortal enemy, but for now, its sooooo true for that person!

What’s your personality like?
Sean Paul, Beyonce - Baby Boy
shit, now the world knows i'm boycrazy. AHAHAH, joking (:

What song will be played at your wedding?
Rihanna - We Ride
Love this coincidence! We ride we ride, until the day that we die..

How does love feel to you?
Fall Out Boy - Do you know who i think i am?
AHAHAH, okay.. Sounds so arrogant of me >.<

What makes you smile?
Carrie Underwood - Whenever you remember
*nod nod!* Good memories of our friendships!

How would you react if the world crumbles?
McFly - I've got you
hmmm, i'm that relaxed ah?

How do you feel when you wake up in the morning?
Chenelle - I fell in love with the DJ
lol, i wish, but i swear i'm more like white noise :)

Relationships feel like..?
Paolo Nutini - NEW SHOES
omg, i agree! hmm, i guess it means they're both nice, and takes loads of breaking into

At your birthday, they should sing..?
Tracey Thorn - By Piccadilly Station i sat down and wept
PLEASE DON'T, i'll crumble up and die!

What's the song in your head during lectures?
Linking Park - Don't Stay
HAHAH so true.. so tempted to pack my stuff and go!

What's your shopping anthem?
Jamie Scott - London Town
HAHA, okay, london is the place to shop, and the song's pretty upbeat-ish.

Sometimes, what do you wish you could tell your teachers?
The Kinks - A well respected man
HAH.

What does chocolate do to you?
Lily Allen - The littlest things
OMG, yes, chocolate makes me emo.

What makes you wanna dance?
Timbaland, The Hives - Throw It On Me
HELL YEAH!

If would the sountrack to your first kiss be?
Linkin Park - Hit the floor
dots. I don't care, but i love the song! one minute you're on top..

What's the song of your first breakup?
Linking Park - What i've done
HAH. for friends who know. hah.

What drives you up the wall?
Jack Johnson - Do you remember
Noooo, there's no link!

What would you be thinking as you die?
Bryan Adams - Everything i do, i do it for you
Hmmm, maybe it means i die sacrificing for someone?

What does your siblings think of you?
Delta Goodrem - Lost Without you
HAHAH, so true. I know i can be a little stubborn sometimes, a little righteous, and a little too proud Love you guys!

What does your crush think of you?
Hoobastank - The reason
HAHAH, hell if i know, but it'll be cool if he does!

ANYWAYS, i tag KWOI, JO JO, CHEE, YIRONG, SYAFIQAH, UMA, SOFIA, SHERMIN (if you still read my blog)

HAHAH, it was fun whilst it lasted! And puh-lease, i have 851songs in my ipod currently, and not all of my good songs came up!

hahah
love love!

ps: some pictures to indulge your soul!








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Oh so emotional..

I've suddenly got this wave of emotions. Thinking, thinking, thinking. I swear its the only thing i am capable of doing in great depth.

Truly, thursdays are really the days where my heart does lots of breaking. I mean, its truly tumultuous. Really, all that thinking~ I SWEAR I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE TO KNOW WHAT I'M THINKING OF.


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ANOTHER BOLD the truth (:
this one is a long one!

My bestfriend is older than me.
There should always be emotion and passion in music.
I think I have died before.
I want to be a pirate.
Captain Jack Sparrow = fucking hotness.
The force is with me.
I can't ride a bike.
I can't swim.
I've made a rubberband or foil ball.
I am 99% unique.
I, at one point, had fluffy 80s style hair.
Well, I know someone who has.
I've been in a wedding.
I use minty toothpaste.
I use fruity toothpaste.
I have a tabby cat.
My dad has bad hair.
I know almost every single song that comes on the radio.
I don't have a BEBO profile.
I use to have or do have a slingshot.
I have made fun of someone and later felt guilty about it.
I've played a prank on a teacher.
Bows are pretty.
I've dressed up as something skanky for Halloween before.
My house has been toilet papered before.
I never use AIM.
My Internet connection is fast.
My pubic hair isn't dark.
Me? Immature. Proud of it.
I call everybody 'babe.'
I have a friend named Helen.
Black roses are gorgeous.
I love the actress Jennifer Connelly.
I've been on a treasure hunt.
I know someone who was murdered.
My dog was killed by another dog.
I've read the DaVinci Code and can't wait to see the movie.
That books sucks balls.
I eat breakfast bars.
I watch soap operas.
Old people are awesome, they know everything!
The News is boring.
I've been picking my nose when I thought no one was looking, only to find out someone was.
I wink a lot.
I can't rollerblade without falling over.
I wear house shoes or slippers inside the house all the time.
Hell, I wear them outside often too.
I have been in an online relationship.
I have cybered before.
I don't even know what cyber is.
I'm slow.
I need to dye my hair.
When I sing, I WAIL.
I've caught myself being turned on by the same sex even though I'm straight.
I'm bisexual.
I wear sunglasses in winter because they look cool.
I want to be an artist.
I love my parents very much.
I'm freaking pissed off today.
You need a hug from me.
I hate hugs.
The whole world just stinks.
I've smoked a cigarette before simply from peer pressure.
I was pressured into having sex too young.
Forests are beautiful.
I hate politics.
I stand up for what I believe in.
I made myself pull away from someone to avoid being hurt.
I see the beauty in most things, or at least I try to.
I have an addiction to video games.
I want some fast food right now.
I like tomato soup.
I say tomAHto instead of tomAto.
It is after 4pm.
I want a baby.
I am different from people my age.
I have visited a suicide chatroom.
I prefer black and white to colours.
I have developed my own photos before.
I'm addicted to at least one show on TV right now.
I have to take pills daily.
I have chores to do today.
My mother is sick at the moment.
I think my parents are way too strict.
I used to think my parents were way too strict but I have come to find they aren't so bad. (They aren't so bad but I STILL think they're WAY too strict...)
The sun is shining.
I wish I could go back in time to see a live hanging or execution.
I'm morbid like that.
I want to be buried, not cremated.
I can't help but get excited and get a greedy look in my eye when holding big amounts of cash.
Clapping annoys me.
I sometimes use British slang. (AND i annoy my friends that way!)
I've kneed a guy in the groin before. (i tried on my brother)
I want to go to the Zoo.
I want to ride an elephant.
I have bought new make up recently.
I write letters in silver pen.
I know who wrote Wuthering Heights.
I think its weird that male seahorses can get pregnant.
...Like its weird that female spiders eat the males after they mate.
My mobile phone is low on battery.
I like the way Paris Hilton dresses.
She dresses like a slut, you moron.
I have streaked hair. (Dang, I WISH!)
Sometimes I cry like a baby.
I have never had a job before.
My 'best friend' talks about me behind my back. (aisy.. everyone does right? its a girl thing)
She also stole my boyfriend.
If I could travel back in time to another century, I'd do it in a heartbeat.
I have seen 'Big Ben' in person.
I can do a great impression of Gollum from Lord of the Rings.
I have done something that, had I gotten caught, I would have been thrown in jail for.
I have crashed my car.
I have crashed into somebody else's car.
I can drive a stick shift.
I have red hair.
Hilary Duff is secretly a whore who lets her boyfriend bend her over.
My teacher is lesbian/gay. not in jc, not that i know of 0.o
I think the lyrics to Pink's "Stupid Girls" kick ass!

I saw Sweeney Todd when it came out.
I haven't seen it, but I want to.
I haven't seen it, and I don't want to.
I keep all my receipts, for everything!
I have a job.
No, I need a job.
I know how to cook.
Reality shows bug me.
I buy movies when they're on sale.
I don't buy movies period.
My birthday is coming up.
My boyfriend/girlfriend's birthday is coming up.
I don't plan on having kids for a longgggg time.
Whatever happened to William Hung?
I have professional pictures taken of me.
I have a fancy-dancy-flippy phone thing.
One of my friends is/was pregnant.
I really want to buy a new comforter for my bed.
I hate when teachers assign books to read.
Teachers THINK they know all there is to know about teenagers.
I like to wear my hair up.
My hair isn't a big deal to me. (HAHAH, i'd be lying if i said i din't)
I have a lot A LOT of friends.
I've got a new animal.
I'm happy with my life now.



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Did you see..

the thing that just fell into the drain?

Oh, that was my immunity system.

I think, just like my skype, my body's immunity system just went down the drain. I know this feeling. Its amazingly familiar to me. The way my body feels, the way my nose runs marathons and itches so bad calamine lotion can't help at all. I know this feeling all to well. Its my annual, bi-annual, monthly (hmm, fits best i think) fever cum flu cum cough, and its starting soon. Oh man.

My immune system's so bad, my primary school teacher was worried for me.
My immune system's so bad, I was detained & sent home during SARS when they check my temp.
My immune system's so bad, i'm afraid to be around people with chicken pox, cos i haven't gotten it yet.
My immune system's so bad, Its not even funny anymore

Being sick makes me even more melodramatic.

i guess my immune system isn't so bad.

i know there are people more worse off than myself

so i thank God for i am grateful

and pray they get better soon, too

just that the feeling isn't so nice, right now.



say love, say love.
Amiin.. back to top?

yayness!

So what's the verdict? Isn't my new skin very pretty? I'm proud of myself. I mean, its quite cool that a techno-toot like me got to edit my whole skin, with syafiqah's as the main template! quite a number of things changed, so i'm pretty happy! (:

anyways, some, er, interesting someone called kewl boi tagged, and like joel, arihant, and i'm sure many others, mistook my "BOLD THE TRUTH" thingy *points to post below!*. I guess its kinda not their fault, cos the fonts were a little toot. If you look now, you'll see the BLUE-BOLDED words are what is applicable to me. Like hello! I mean, i've never touched a drop of alcohol in my life, tho' i have stepped inside MOS, but, hahah, that was for a concert. Haha. Think a girl like me would've lost her virginity at 17, outside, in a foreign country - note: I'M NOT 17.....yet (:


lolness.


Anyhow, HAPPY MONDAY BLUES everyone.. my begins in Tminus 5Hours&12Minutes!

jaye back to top?

with nothing better to do...
BOLD THE TRUTH!
It is almost my birthday.
I am nearing the end of my teenage years.
Which is scary.
My favourite music genre is Dance.
I used to like emo until everyone else discovered it.
Kids between the ages of 10-16 irritate the hell out of me.
But I love little kids.
I work in a bookstore.
My job is boring but pays well.
I am off to university soon!
I went to the bank today.
I have much more money than I realised.
I got a new computer today!
My computer is FIT.
I LOVE The Sims 2.
And I cannot wait until TS2: Pets comes out.
I have a really good graphics card on my computer.
I have to take medication every day.
And I'm always forgetting to take it.
I wear glasses.
Which are always dirty.
I wear contact lenses.
I love big sunglasses.
Aviator style sunglasses are even better.
I used to like Starbucks until I tried real French coffee.
Now I realise Strabucks is just flavoured water.
Costa is ten times better.
I'm not a big fan of coffee on its own, but I love mochas.
I'm really cold right now.
I'm hungry right now.
I'm hungover.
I drank faaaaaaar too much last night.
But I'll end up doing the same thing next time I go out.
I love clubbing.
I am what is known as a 'party animal'.
When I get excited I get really loud and people have to tell me to be quiet.
My favourite colour is red.
My bedroom is red.
I have a double bed.
My bed is THE comfiest bed in the world.
I am currently transferring files from one computer to another.
It's doing my head in.
I live in England.
I have never been to America.
I don't really have any desire to go there, either.
I adore Paris.
I would like to live there one day.
I've got a pretty good singing voice.
I have studied and intend to carry on studying Drama. (I'M NOT SURE IF I SHOULD BOLD THIS!)
Even though the written side of it sucks.
I have a major fascination in Anthropology (the study of human evolution).
I'm secretly a Science geek at heart.
I am currently wearing nail varnish.
That is red.
I'm wearing socks.
But my feet are still cold.
My hands are cold.
I wish the weather was hotter.
I hate teenagers that act like they're all depressed and stuff.
But I used to be one of them.
I would really love to eat some chips right now.
With lots of vinegar.
Vinegar is good.
As are pickled onions.
And prawn ****tails.
I have recently kissed someone that I secretly fancied for aaaaaages.
I reaally want a boyfriend right now.
Or a friend with benefits.
I am so sex deprived it's not even funny.
I've never understood the notion of staying a virgin until marriage.
I lost my virginity at 17.
Outside.
In a foreign country.
But it was still good.
I have been in love before.
It's amazing.
But also hell.
I don't believe in hell.
I believe in reincarnation.
If I'm reincarnated, I want to come back as a different race.
Just to experience the variety.
I would never want to be a boy.
Boys smell =)
If I look outside, I can see a tree.
And red flowers.
I only ever go for guys that are very dark.
And have dark eyes.
Really, it's all in the eyes.
I have big eyes.
And long eyelashes.
The first time I tried waxing my legs I swore. A lot. Very loudly.
And my mom laughed at me.
I never wax now.
My razor is pink.
My computer has no music on it.
And it's really irritating me.
My iPod is being sent off to be repaired.
I don't know what I'd do without it.
I am quitting my job soon.

I enjoy sports and have sports equipment in my room.
It makes my day when people give me props and comments on my xanga.
There are a lot of electrical cords and electronics in my room.
I wish I could wear PJ pants instead of jeans everyday.
I go to the dentist regularly, even though I hate it.
There are several countries I want to visit before I die.
If I took over the world the first country I would take over would be China.
I enjoy shopping for Christmas and birthday presents.
I've made a wish on a star and had it come true.
I enjoy buying DVD boxsets and watching them over watching the shows on TV.
I enjoy watching shows on TV rather than buying them on DVD.
If I see money lying on the ground, I'll pick it up.
Sleeping is one of my favorite hobbies.
I am a time fanatic, I look at the clock every five minutes sometimes.
A day without reading is like a day without eating for me.
Hearing my cellphone ring makes me happy.
You can't take away my coffee, don't even try.
I wish I had a kid just to buy them all the awesome toys that are out there.
I've been known to play video games for 12 hours straight without moving.
Cute things make me blush and squeal.
There's a food that I really can't live without eating at least once a week.
Green tea is very relaxing.
I enjoy watching war movies.
I've fallen asleep while playing video games or reading.
I enjoy watching movies.
I think lifetime should be named the network against men.
I enjoy the sound of a full piggybank.
Sometimes I wonder what life would be like in a different era.
I love the feeling of warm towels, fresh out of the dryer.
The idea of fighting with light sabers sounds very fun.
I enjoy reading magazines, and have at least two subscriptions.
The tissue box in my room has a cool design on it.


I enjoy playing practical jokes on people, even though I know I shouldn't.HAHAHAHHA:D


I create sims based off people I know in real life, and they look like them.
I enjoy playing a musical instrument and I have thought about making it my major.
Few papers of mine don't have doodles and sketches all over them.
Laughing until my sides hurt or I'm crying is a feeling I love.
Bright things are hypnotizing.
I enjoy fighting & martial arts so much I think I was a samurai in a past life.
I'm not cold.
I don't like the winter fashions for this year.
I'm obsessed with buying cute clothes.
I love to burn candles in my room.
Going shopping and not buying anything seems strange to me.
Fire is fun to watch.
My mind wanders and I laugh and people think I'm going crazy.
When I was a kid I loved to play dress up.
Seeing someone cry makes me want to cry too.
I think kittens are so cute to watch.
I've been so caught up in Video Games before that I've forgotten to eat.
The counting Dracula in Sesame Street inspired my love for math.
One of the greatest things you can have is memories.
I love going shopping, even if it's just to pick up a loaf of bread.
I've dressed goth before, just to see what it would be like.
I enjoy having a busy schedule as opposed to having a free one.
I enjoy having a free schedule as opposed to having a busy one.
I'm missing something, and it's somewhere in my room.
I always have my cell phone. It's almost like an attached arm to me.
I have a strangely vivid imagination.
FLCL inspired me to be violent with my guitar!
When The Trix rabbit killed those kids in Family Guy, I cheered "FINALLY!".
The sound of money clanking makes my heart race.
I would love to live off asian foods for the rest of my life.
When I see people getting hurt makes me laugh.
I have papers from elementary school somewhere in the house.
If someone falls, I rush over to make sure they're okay.
I know someone who has a stamp collection.
Watching fish is fun, and time seems to fly by.
I took swimming lessons when I was younger.
I greatly admire my collection of books.
I've painted ceramics before.
I hate it when people park behind me and take their time leaving.
I've driven a car before I was of the legal age.
I know someone who is dating someone ten years or more their senior.
I know someone in the army, marines, navy, or air force.
TV used to be better, I think TV writers just stopped trying.
I get enough sleep.
I have games on my cell phone.
I've daydreamed about what it would be like to ride on the back of a dragon.
I have read the book the Da Vinci Code.
Back to the Future is pure genius.
Family Guy is the most awesome show ever created.
If I hear American Idiot or Boulevard of Broken Dreams one more time I'm going to vomit.
Caffiene has some crazy effects on me.
I think in fact that I've ODed on caffiene.
I've caught something on fire before.
I can't wait to start Christmas shopping.
I used to be able to sit and watch Cartoon Network for hours, now I can't even stand 30 minutes.
One of the last "new" shows I liked was The Fairly Oddparents.
I've read a book in a foreign language before and understood what I was reading (Malay&CSP!).
I have a list of things I want to do before I die.
I always doodle all over my notes.
I am a loyal fan of the bathroom reader series.
Nothing beats a warm bath in winter.
I've been asked for money by a beggar.
Chocolate is my life force.
I've had to have stitches at least once in my life.
I've suffered food poisoning before.
It's really creepy to see guys wearing pink shirts.
I've never fired a gun before and I hope I never have to.
I'd feel insecure without my computer or the internet.
I am often bored.
I am rarely if ever bored.
My mind is filled with interesting facts I've gathered over the years.
I prefer to wear dark colors over light.
I prefer to wear light colors over dark.

I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am a perfectionist.
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently single.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am okay at styling other people’s hair.
I am left handed.
I am addicted to my myspace.
I am very shy around the opposite gender.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I currently regret something that I have said.
When I get mad I curse frequently.
I like someone.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy jazz music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a pet.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” person.
I have all my grandparents.
I have at least one sibling.
I have been told that I am smart.
(after this, you see the irony!)
I get higher than C’s in school.
My GPA is higher then 2.5.
I have broken a bone.
I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed/showered with someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have done something illegal.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair.
I have had surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the cops called on me.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.

I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
I am really ticklish.
I’m afraid of the dark.
I can’t sleep in a room if the door is open.
I can’t sleep in a room if the door is closed.
I am homosexual.
I believe in true love.
I’ve ran away from home.
I listen to political music.
I collect comic books.
I shut others out when I’m sad.
I’ve stayed out all night.
I open up to others easily.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I watch the news.
I love Disney movies.
I am a sucker for green eyes.
I am a sucker for brown eyes.
I am a sucker for blue eyes.
I dont kill bugs.
I have “x”s in my screen name.
I’ve slipped and fell in public.
I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a real conversation.
I love Spam.
I bake well.
I have worn pajamas to class.
I want a better job.
Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
I love Dr. Phil.
I like multiple people.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I am self-conscious.
I love to laugh.
I have tried alcohol.
I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
I have tried a cigarette.
I have smoked a pack in one day.
I loved Lord of the Flies.
I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
I can’t swallow pills.
I have a lot of scars.
I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I like chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I am not comfortable with being me.
I play computer games when I’m bored.
I've gotten lost in the city.
I've thought of suicide before.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've hugged a stranger.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've made out in an elevator.
I've kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.(I TRIED!)
I've been skydiving.
I've been bungee jumping.
I've gotten stitches.
I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I've bitten someone.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've gotten the chicken pox.
I've crashed into a car.
I've been to Germany.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've shoplifted.
I've been fired.
I've had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
I stole something from my job.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've had a crush on a teacher/coach.
I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
I've been married.
I've gotten divorced.
I saw someone/something dying.
I have a list of people I want to kill. (but never will!)
I've ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've thrown up in a bar.
I've eaten sushi.
I've cried in public.
I've walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
I liked someone even though you knew you shouldn’t have.
I've thought of someone a lot lately.
I hate the world.(sometimes)

OMGluh, i got this from... SOFIA'S blog! another one another one!


Select the month you were born in:
1 (Jan) - I stabbed
2 (Feb) - I needed
3 (Mar) - I ran naked with
4 (Apr) - I killed
5 (May) - I jumped
6 (June)- I smoked with
7 (July) - I ran shirtless with
8 (Aug) - I banged
9 (Sept) - I shot
10 (Oct) - I robbed
11 (Nov) -I slapped
12 (Dec) - I cuddled with



Pick the day (number) you were born on:
01 - the trojan man
02 - a homeless guy
03 -a homo
04 - A mop
05 - a dog
06 - a rock star
07 - Paris Hilton
08 - my lover
09 - a toothbrush
10 - my boyfriend
11 - a glass of milk
12 - a teletubby
13 - the cookie monster
14 - a drunk
15 - a crack head
16 - a cat
17 - a bum
18 - a whore
19 - a hobo
20 - a stripper
21 - a porn star
22 - Barney the dinosaur
23 - the kool-aid man
24 - an easter egg
25 - my ex girlfriend
26 - a hottie
27 - a bag of weed
28 - a french fry
29 - your mom
30 - a bowl of cereal
31 - jezzy the snowman



Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
White - because that bitch stole my taco
Pink - because I’m good in bed
Red - because I have AMAZING boobs
Brown- because I still love him
Polka Dots - because I hate my life
Purple - because I’m gay
Grey - because I’m sexy like that
Other - because I have double D’s
Green - because I love to snort cocaine.
Orange - because I smoke crack
Turquoise - because I have a noodle in my nose
Blue - because I'm the sexiest bitch alive
Tye dye- because I'm a fucking scuba diver
None- because I have a killer six pack

hahaha, I JUMPED PARIS HILTON BECAUSE I'M THE SEXIEST BITCH ALIVE!

oh lols! back to top?

It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain
As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
There'll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again
Just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
As I'm watching you walk away
And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

It's a cruel thing you'll never know all the ways I tried
It's a hard thing, faking a smile when I feel
like I'm falling apart inside
And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

But you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

For the first time, there is no mercy in your eyes
And the cold wind is hitting my face and you're gone
And you're walking away (away)
And now I'm helpless sometimes
Wishing's just no good
'Cause you don't see me like I wish you would

'Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
But you always keep passing me by

No, you never were, and you never will be mine

(I saw you at the station,
You had your arm around what's-her-name
She had on that scarf I gave you
And you got down to tie her laces)

'Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
(You looked happy, and that's great)
No, you never were, and you never will be mine
(I just miss you, that's all)

'Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet (hey, yeah)
But you always keep passing me by

No, you never were, and you never will be mine
'Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
(You never were, and you never will)
You never were and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
But you always keep passing me by

No, you never were, and you never will be mine

~robyn Be mine

this song, is exactly how i feel. exactly.



check it out.
i love her. always have(:

this whole nothingness thing, sucks.

Anyhow, managed to fit in studying. not much, but i pray tomorrow will be much more productive

Went for training, and after, went to THE SERANGOON, to study. It's the community club near my house, and i signed up to use the study room. Its a damn good place to study by the way. OH, and i want people to study with!!!! AHHH, someone! pick me!pick me! :D

PICHAS!

ME&ANDRINA
me&kwoi
little ruggers!
contactrug girls!


practising the ripping off
love this photo! coach doing a demo for us
at my study place
view from my window
my braids!
managed to find time to camrainbow (according to syafiqah)

that's my spot! reflection from the ceiling!

oh, gosh. my iphoto edits my photos really well, it looks really really good, some of them! yayness




love! back to top?

Man i am so behind time. For everything.

Fact: i have been slacking off.
Fiction: I understand all my topics.
Fact: The only thing that i'm on time in is PW.
Fiction: I've got no time to study.


Haix. I have to buck up. And so this weekend will be the time to do so.

What i need is a timetable of some sort to make sure that i fit some studying in, everyday. I really just want to be worry-free of retaining, of failing, all those sorts of things. I mean, who starts off their junior college year, worrying so much about retaining? EVERYONE . hah, I mean, i really think it shouldn't be a part of our worries, i.e we should be on task and what not. Right?


But altogether, in order for me to study, there's one BIG thing that i have to do!

SHUT DOWN THIS COMPUTER!


so, i'm on a... partial hiatus? yeah. I'll blog. maybe frequently, maybe not so frequently, but if i switch it on, its for nothing more than to blog, and school work.

ciao! back to top?

back to top?

today, i'm love-filled. And not, love in the sense... i'm in love, but more of the beauty of love. I was waiting for my turn in the polyclinic today, and saw a glowing mother with a beautiful new born in her hands.. truly, deeply, nothing can beat that sort of tenderness and love.

And it brought me to the movie "A walk to remember", and i still remember the beautiful passage from the movie (okay, i sourced out and its a scripture from the bible. Regardless.)

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails


I can only dream it.


Another quote from this book i'm reading.

True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and very few have seen
-Francois, duc de la Rochefoucauld, Maxim 76


I keep on thinking, haix, maybe my blog is very emo, yada yada.. i'm not a normal teen, yada yada.. But then it struck me, this is the normal teen. This is what it means; to grow, to think, to yearn, to question, to feel, to contemplate. It is part of the growing process, and well it happens to everyone. Well, not everyone - there still thrives those lucky rare-breeds, the ones who can pass through life with a smile fixated on their face. But even then, surely there is some adversity they face. The Lord didn't put us on this Earth, to be free from pain or adversity, but to test us- our patience, our faith, our virtue.


Anyways, other than that. I keep on thinking whats the worst thing i could possibly do. Well, i believe, in the eyes of my parents and my brothers, it could be coming home pregnant (FLASHBACKS to Juno!!!). OR coming home a lesbian. I swear they'd beat me up into smithereens. NOT that i intend to come home pregnant, anytime in the near future. Or gay. Sorry, but that's not my cup of tea. Personally though, i think the worst thing i could do, is lose faith - in myself, in life, in my religion.. To totally give up. That would certainly be bad. Uhuh.


If anyone read the papers today, you'd see the whole Tibetian protests, tied together ironically with the Beijing Olympics. I am not knowlegable of the whole issue. But it just sucks to see the violence and all, i mean, like this world needs anymore hatred.
You know what really drives me up the wall? When groups of people use religion to fuel their political agenda. I get really really annoyed. Really. ah, thinking about it just makes me wanna scream.



ANYHOW! SOME PHOTOS!!! (:



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So how was your friday?


Mine was pretty great actually! Firstly, i LOVVVEEE fridays cos school ends uber early for me, at... 12.30pm!
After school, me and gang (nitin, anqi, chee yang & jo) went to eat tau huay. For kwoi and nitin, it was their virgin experience, eating beancurd. WHICH i might add, they probably regretted buying their OWN, instead of sharing the lot with us! ahahah. Oh well i guess new things always rub us the wrong way. We met natasha and gang and we all pretty much dominated the tau huay store at Potong Pasir!

After enjoying our little desserts, the five of us decided to go for a movie! We went to ps, but well, the movie timings sucked for us, cos anqi, jo and nitin needed to return to school for cca.. So we watched a movie that we sooooooo had no idea what it was about, titled "Run, Fat Boy, Run". A brit movie - as always the Brits have the coolest and crudest sense of humor. It wasn't a bad movie. The start was especially funny. The end was good. The middle.. well some good some not so good.. But i can say i enjoyed the movie, and i think i'll puke if i see men well into their years wearing tight running shorts. PLUS we got to play pranks on nitin and natasha ( another natasha - chee's friend). We basically put the nacho cheese into an empty packet of chips, and offered them some.. Nitin's fingers were all SUPER CHEESY.. hahaha fun fun!


AFTER THAT, i went to meet GREAT and WORM! Since i didn't get to meet up with the kings on thursday, half of us (well 3fifths) met up yesterday! OH MAN how much i missed them, and i did tell them SOOO many times how much i missed them! I was craving for my noodles so we went to Far East and each of us ate MUSHROOM CHICKEN NOODLES!



Okay, that was more of what's left of the noodles... THIS time we remembered to pay! >.< Well after that, we walked around far east finding for some place we could go eat some dessert.. We were going round round and round finding for this shop called tasty treats ( We got it from the directory listing)



AND when we finally found it, it was a chinese store that, er didn't look very, tasty! =.= hahah

BUT WE FOUND THIS very very empty jap place called MOGU MOGU! HAHAHAH

buying the food was damn fun!!!!!! They had a machine where we could order our food from, it was pretty cool!







We shared MOCHI icecream and a pancake icecream burger, which was pretty goooood!







I put up our very funny video on my facebook! so if you're can watch it, do watch! hahaha.. anyways, after icecream we went to Borders! We walked and we talked and looked through books, and went psycho over books, sat down here and there, it was so fun! AND we each got a new pencil case! Yirong got a metal-ly one (pink with flowers), i got a normal fabric-y one (blue with monsters!!) and i bought syaf a metal-ly one too (pink with meow meows!) ! It was a part of her birthday present!

Since it was nearing 7.30pm, we all had to part our ways. But overall we had a great time...SOME MORE PICTURES!! (which by the way was all taken by syafiqah with my phone!)







SATURDAY tho, was a little different for me. I had my first CONTACT rugby training, which was actually LOADS of fun! But i twisted my ankle! haix, i have no idea if its sprained or what- i mean when it happened i had intense pain and all, but it died down, i thought it was just one of those mild twists. But now it still hurts and knowing me, i'll never think its important enough to go doctor, and also knowing myself, i'll never tell anyone it hurts or whatever. I don't wnat people to think i'm weak i guess. Haix. I was born with way too much pride for my own good. I just pray it heals by monday, so that i can go for p.e and training. I don't know what i should do tho. How do i know if its a sprained ankle? Care to tell me, anyone?



LOVE LOVE! better study! >.< back to top?

Haix.
I didn't get to meet the kings today >.< That was pretty depressing, cos i was really looking forward to it, telling EVERYBODY about it, but cos they changed the meeting place, i couldn't meet them, at least i wasn't able to do so in time. I really really do miss them truckloads.

I'm still thinking about love and everything. Today, other then not being able to meet the kings, was a pretty funny day lah. I "broke up" with my "boyfriend" HAHAH. Well joel's my pretend boyfriend, from the APRIL FOOLS joke we played on Anqi (i think cheeken's gonna post about it! but i know anqi has posted PART of it in her blog!) so yesterday, we acted out our "relationship"... From the whole pseudo-taiwanese drama scenes - "I LIKE YOU, PLEASE ACCEPT MY LETTER" *BOWS down* to partial initiation of our relationship, and today we introduced a THIRD PERSON and we finally did the break up at POPcafe. hahahah it was so funny, i think me and jo has kept anqi and cheeken and other onlookers well-entertained. Oh BUT during chemistry practical, we realised we didn't have a "couple picture", so we did a very husband and wife pose. Chin tau, anqi and jo also took photos of me and chee yang, which were very funny.. Hopefully i can put them up soon! Oh but for the crux of the practical, it was pretty fun! As always, (i have no idea why, but in JC suddenly i can't do practicals the way i was able to in Cedar) i'm one of the last to begin. But, i was also pretty careful and conscientious.

which means: NO STAINED SHIRTS, NOT WET ANSWER PAPERS, NO WET QUESTION PAPERS, NO GETTING SPRAYED AT :D

AND not to mention, i was also able to get the titration proper, even though i was able to only once, i actually got it, without like screwing up anything else.


Do you think its too late to start some resolutions? Well yeah, i'm four months behind the official day of the new year, but i don't think its ever too late to begin making some plans, especially plans for change.

SO here are some of my resolutions:
- Study consistently ( i actually typed 'study more consistently' but i realise in order for me to be MORE consistent, i've gotta have already begun studying >.<)
- Stop being overly self-conscious (ITS a freaking paranoia i tell you, its like a psychological disease..!)
- FOCUS on the bigger picture! (As for A'S. As for A's. As for A's)
- TRAIN UP so i can stay in touch rug!
- Sleep better hours
- LESS VULGARITIES (homg its like suddenly being in sa, with my friends, my mouth suddenly talks, way way way before i can stop the words from coming out of my mouth)
- To be myself, and not screw up any friendships i've newly forged.
- breathe.

YEAH, oh well.

Sometimes i wish i can be as confident about myself like some of the people around me. I mean, to many people, i'm confident and loud and all, but really, its just a facade... inside is this whole frenzy of paranoia, thoughts, but well, it is beginning, slowly but surely, to improve.. ONE DAY (:

Anyways, its so true. I am in love, with love. When i see simple things a person does for their other half, simple gestures of love people share with one another, i must say, i reek of envy. I have never had that "love that blows you away" i see surrounding many people, and i just am very envious, of any one who has experienced it. I'd love to love deeply, truly, tenderly, and passionately. But my time has yet to come.

When it finally does, the world will know

for now, i'm always and forever will be all smiles (:






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oh my goodness


i'm all HANA YORI DANGO-FIED.
really,

NOTHING, beats it. HAIX.

now all i can think about is, i wanna fall in love faster leh, like domyouji & makino's love...
WAHHH.. pull heartstrings.



anyways, dunno why today, partially heartpain. hahah, all this talk about romance. PFFT!
HAIX...

i'm in love, with love..

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oh well today was FUNNY!


HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!


so many people were the victim of my pranks!
but the best one was the last one, irshah me & kin ended up talking so much after that! :D
hahaha


ohoh, today CEDAR came to my school for HEATS! HAHAH like i so don't have to go back to cedar, they came to me! hahaha
ohoh, this i bound to make SOMEONEs.. jealous!
hahah






I HOPE I GET TO MEET UP WITH THE KINGS ON.. THURSDAY! ahhhhhhhh YIRONG should like.. slaughter me man! HAIX. i call myself a friend..


ohoh, i've got to train up big time, cos they're cutting 6 people or so from the touch rug team... OH DEAR... it is sooo gonna be me man, my fitness sucks.. HAIX, train up!!


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