I'm happy for myself right now (:

Right now, nothing really can spoil how i feel.. I just went for a long run - i personally think that it wasn't as far as the other day's but it doesn't matter. And i feel good inside! Last night, i couldn't run so i did like 200 jumps instead. Oh boy - i'm pretty happy right now. I think its the endorphins or some other sort of hormones. HAHA.

Gosh, i really really think i ought to get a new ipod, i'm not sure which kind though - Ipod Video or Ipod touch?! Cos like my ipod's fullllllllllllllllll. Eitherway, i have to save up before the actual buying is carried out. hahah! okay, i'm a bit high right now!

gaahh..
i've already planned out what i'll be bringing for the class potluck - whenever it is. I'll be baking a ocryokeehhprhseccaebawteperiatelc and/or aceyeechwenseorkk for some special "occasion" (YA ITS IN LIKE JUMBLED UP LETTERS. I WOULDN'T BOTHER decoding if i were you!), pasta (what else am i good for anyways) or lasagna (but then this requires the oven too...hahaha) yupp! oh well i hope the outing goes on well; i really need some just TRULY FUN GO CRAZY wacky fun sun beach and whatnots! And to tan up nicely. I think my skin is sallow-ish! hahaah, me and kwoi have the whole tannig thing planned out! hahahah BUT for sure, i'll be complaining about it years from now cos i take WAAAAY long to get the fairness back after a tan. hmmm now i'm like.. should i?! hahahahha

Oh lol, i hope we get to go out. i'm really looking forward to this. I might just cry if we cancel! hahahah


WHOLE LOTTA SMILES and lovin'
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Cause a face without freckles is like a sky without the stars..

One word that sums up my day in a nutshell. UNEVENTFUL.
Haix. You know, i had better stop watching young people make it in hollywood what nots. It just starts my whole paranoia thing again. I shall somehow convince myself to a desk job. DESK job. or not. Just something practical.HAHAHA, oh lol, eitherway, the first step to my shiny bright future is studying. AND well, just so you know, i have, about, 6 more hours till my official days of lazing about ends - after this, its GAME ON!

reflecting who i am
Anyhow, i've been doing loads of contemplating about life, and well, there's just somethings which i wished i had. I won't lie - i have a better life than most and sometimes I ought to be shot for wanting more, but i guess its truly because i can't help it. The more i think about it, the more i see it, the more i want it. But, i can see why i don't have it. Its fine by me, i can totally understand.

But sometimes, don't you just hate that feeling - that want that you have that can't be fulfilled, and you actually know why.

I know i ought to be grateful with everything that i actually have, but i'm only human, aren't i?

Sometimes i look at life, and i think to myself, Is this it? Is this all there is to it? I look at myself and i don't like what i see. I look at my life, and what have i achieved? I see the people out there, doing so many things, looking great, feeling that sense of pride that i wonder, will i ever have the chance to taste? Its not that i am ungrateful - but then i feel down and blue. fuck I can't even study properly and do well, when it seems to be the most basic of things a person should be capable of doing.

I wish i could love myself and see what others see in me. But i can't. All i see is what looks back at me in the mirror. Nevertheless, I will try. I am the only one I've got, and come to think about it, I am the only one i have for the rest of my life. So.. why waste a second not loving who you are?



Freckles - Natasha Bedingfield

I used to care so much about what others think about
Almost didn’t have a thought of my own
The slightest remark would make me embark
On the journey of self doubt
But that was a while ago
This girl has got stronger
If I knew then what I know now
I would have told myself don’t worry any longer it's OK

[Chorus:]
'cause a face without freckles is like a sky without stars
Why waste a second not loving who you are
Those little imperfections make you beautiful, lovable, valuable,
They show your personality inside your heart
Reflecting who you are

Who you are
Who you are
Who you are

I wondered if I could trade my body with somebody else in magazines
With the whole world full at my feet
I phantom worthy and would blame my failures on the ugliness I could see
When the mirror looked at me
Sometimes I feel like the little girl who doesn’t belong in her own world
But I'm getting better
And I'm reminding myself

[Chorus]

Reflecting who you are
Reflecting who you are
Hmmm
Whoooooo whoa hmmmm oooooo

[Chorus]

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Jesse McCartney's "Leaving" Has been..

STUCK in my head for DAAAAAAAAYYYS and it still is. The thing is, i'm in LOVE with it. And i don't care what anyone says. I love it. I really do(:

I went out with ymers recently. HAHAH, the ride all the way to EASTCOASTPARK is damn blooooooody the long lah. And not to mention i had NO idea where to stop! But the lovely thing was that i saw Syazana on the bus!!!! hoorah! hahaha, gosh i miss pre-u semmers!! Its a lot of fun to talk to her and all - too bad we didn't take pictures lah! ahhahaha:D

anyways, when i (FINALLY) arrived there, they were like lepak-ing (chilling aimlessly) on a TEEEEEEEEENSY mat in the middle of no where. HAAHA, but we ate a BK lunch, then decided we were sick of ECP already. SO instead our journey changed. Adel wanted to go to the Flea Market thing at the Singapore Arts Museum (which looks as ravishing as ever-might i say) which was great lah, i mean everything there was so pretty and all i WISH i brought more $$KA-CHIING$$ but oh well, meticulous saving is essential, at this time in my life.

THE THING ABOUT US ymers is that spontaneity doesn't do us any good! ahahha we're sooo bad at it, as in we usually can never make a decision about what we are going to do, and worst yet, we're either somewhat broke, somewhat picky, somewhat craving, somewhat somewhat so we take the longest time to make a decision. BUT usually at the end of the day, its what makes our outings highly memorable. (:

WE WALKED LIKE WE HAD TO COMPLETE LIKE A TEN-K WALKATHON or something, and the weather, well it was very, Singapore. ahahah :D It got to the point of desperation for sitting that me and hani just sat on the floor when we came to a stop; desperation that syed and fariz went LOCO! AHAHAHHA. But it was good, we needed this day, to catch up with each other, the gossips, the stories, the horrids, the eyecandy, the exams.....heh! Lol i really enjoyed today, ESPECIALLY the end of it. We were crapping like siao - LARD, tuwek, ROUND, SIOL, MEE GORENG, BULU BURGERS ~ taking over the world one strand at a time, Batricia, PSYCHO lesbo stalkers, LEMBUT, BRITAIN, LADY'S man, BABI melayu gosh, what great fun (: the journey home with the usuals, AMI AND SYED, was fun. HAHAH more, GILA than always, trying to speak in malay throughout and see who falters first. hahaha, syed broke first, then ami - which is funny cos his is usually an accident - and i win! hehe!

we took truckloads of PHOTOS which was lotsa fun! HAHAH, especially the “POLE DANCE” which wasn’t really a pole dance but syed was just a bit the nutsy. Ahahaha I love you all truckloads! PLUS- i just have to update on what has been happening, through pichas ofcourse. In no specific order - kings outing, SG14 outing, tuition, YMC, cake!






























































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