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If it kills me..

You have no idea! OH GOSH, i am attempting a feat of a lifetime. I think you might need a little visual help.








You were forewarned! Okay, i got distracted whilst cleaning up! Needed to fill up my time with some music you know. I mean making up songs in my head got very boring, especially since i made up lyrics as i went. So you know, i couldn't remember what I said ten seconds ago. back to top?

Me and mar were...
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Pick your birth month→ Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you→ Copy to your blog→ Tag 10 people from your friends list


JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chestSexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fail. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.



grabbed this from amirah. got really bored. try it!

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Okay, this is it.

I'll find my words. Somehow.

You know, I dislike people being in my business, and this even extends to my own family. Unless you're a person of concern, that is, like my best friends and stuff, I do not like you minding my business. At all. The worst part is, I know these people have no really bad intentions. Somethings though, are my own business, and I do not appreciate people talking about it, telling other people about it, and then asking me how I'm doing. How do YOU think I'm doing, knowing that people are talking about me when I'm not there?

Sigh. I know I sound pissed, but really I'm not. I just wish people would ask ME and not other people. Frankly, I would tell you - its not like I can thwart it in anyway, anyways.



Mediocre, will not get my anywhere. I know that. Which is why I wonder, am I prepared for the second year? Or should I start right back at one? I wanna be in the route that'll give me the best possible results for my A's. Everyone has doubts. Everyone has inhibitions. But seriously, carpe diem, right?

Sieze the day, with all my might.

I don't know what to do, but simply let nature take its course. I swear to you, the next week is going to be highly tumultuous. Very.

Nurjannahcheang,
You will take it in your stride, you understand. You will take all this self-pity, anger and frustration, and purge it from your soul. Instead, you will learn from this. Learn from it all, and make things better. No matter how, you will make it all better - if there's something you're good at, its that. Take this opportunity and make the best out if it. The rest is left to God.

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I've got a world of emotions to let off my chest

But i can't find any of my words.
I feel so darn lost. Darn darn lost.

Lost in this whirlwind of pain, anger, frustration, sadness, regret - and I'm just gasping every bit of air that I can get.

I dunno where to go from here. I dunno how to pick myself up.


I'm just.. lost. back to top?

Thanks for the memories..

Thursdays live up to being the blackest, emo-est and most depressing days.

Don't they just, kwoi?

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bahh.

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KONICHIWA, bitches.

Things could not be morehorridthanever lovelier. 6 hours of PW went by like WOOSH. The first half was 0.o BUT well the OP course was darn fun!

GOT DOLPHIN? GOT GOLDFISH? SHARKSFIN??

OMG, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE... I LOVE YOUUUUUU!

SINCE WHEN? WHEN HAVE YOU BEGUN LOVING ME?

EH - WHY YOU IN THIS PLAYBOY MAGAZINE!?!

MALE PROSTITUTES!

HOW YOU BUMP INTO THE TREE? WHEN YOU BUMP INTO THE TREE? WHY YOU BUMP INTO THE TREE? HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TO CHANGE?!

I WANT MY BITCH BACK!

I TELL YOU ALSO YOU DUNNO MY BROTHER!

LET'S GO THROUGH THAT HOLE!

EH I WANT TO GO WILD WILD WET! WE BUILD ONE LAH! LETS HOP ON A PLANE TO EUROPE WILD WILD WET!

I SUPERWOMAN!

MY DADDY SAY YOU MUST BRING ME!!!


haha, i love my class. I really really really really do. I love them all hardcore. Their all like family - you hate them, you argue, you roll eyes ~ but in the end of the day, you know that without one of them, EVERYTHING changes.

But thats the thing right, everything has already begun to change. I know, deep deep down, comfort aside and reality piercing through, the likeliness of me spending my last year with this lovely bunch of people is so darn slimnot gonna happen. ohfucketyfuckwhyamicrying In fact, it won't be my last year - it'd be my first all over again. I know I've declared that I'd rather have a prettier cert for 'A's but I can't help to feel melancholic about it. I won't lie, I feel miserable about it, mournful even. And I also won't lie, when I say, I deserve it . So many things will change; we'll go our separate ways, and who's to say that we won't simply give uncomfortable smiles to each other in the future, when we pass by - if we do. I couldn't ask for much better memories of my first year of junior college - the laughters, the suanning, the pranks, the craziness, the brotherhoods, the truth or dares, the sentosa outings.

Thanks for everything - truly, madly, deeply, I love you guys. Thanks for entertaining me, for listening to my stoopid blabbering, for supporting every outing i've planned, for complimenting my cheesecakes and lasagna, for the craziness, for the gayness, FOR EVERYTHING. Nothing would be the same without a single one of you.. Thank you...

yrroS rof ton gniyats, dna gnikam hguorht.

if we pass each other, smile bright smiles at me, okay?
Things change, and if I don't keep up, I'm gonna be left behind everywhere I go. Just as I expect to be, everytime.


love, jaye

p/s: i'm very proud of you JOEL CHEONG YIN KIT!!!! relative of kainina cheong chio bu! I'M VERY HAPPY FOR YOU! <33 back to top?

The thought of it makes my head spin

I know this is sooooo conflicting what I've promised to do.
BUT I REALLY HAVE TO WHINE ABOUT THE blooddyshittyfuckingassidiotbakabitch LOVELY timetable we have next week.
Apparently, the school overestimates my LOVE for PW, so much so they've scheduled 6 HOURS of pw everyday for the whole of next week. WHATthepong?!

I get the need for it, but already 6 hours a week i'm dying, they expect 6 hours a day?

WAHPIANG EH.


i wanna get my license.
HEH. Its weird that ALL my cousins that are 18 and above all ALL all have their license.
THEN AGAIN it takes about RM700 for them to get their license, whilst about $2000 here.

haiyo ):

anyhow! TOODLES. tmr's gonna be damn sianed, but I'm gonna try to take it in my stride. I APOLOGISE if i'm a bitch tmr. :C back to top?

ALERT THE MEDIA.. i think i'm weird! 0.o

You know what, after days of wallowing in self-pity, spite, hate and anger, I've decided to let it go. LET IT ALL GOO... *woosh*
Its not healthy and its seriously depressing. I mean, whats the point of being angry anyways? I know for one, things definitely didn't go as plan, but even so, when I mope or bitch about it, it doesn't change things.

I shall be a happy person, who shall stop thinking so much. (:

and maybe love will grace me with its presence.

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Imma darling tagged! SO i'm doing the necessary! (:



1.The person who tag/pass you is? NURUL IMMA WONG
2. Your relationship with him/her is? A very lovely friend!
3. Your five impression of him/her? hardworking, funny, caring, driven, successful!!
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? Hmm, written me letters and listened to me when I needed someone!
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you? You're a friend that I trust (:
6. If he/she becomes your lover you will? LOVE HER LIKE NO ONE HAS LOVED HER BEFORE!
7. If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be? she has to love herself more (:
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? BAKE HER COOKIES! hahaha, enemy? whatheshits.
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? BAKE ME COOKIES!! what a sad world i live in. Naahh. Won't happen. Hopefully!
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is? Keep her hair in tip top condition! *secret fetish!*
11. Your overall impression of him/her is? Beautiful in many ways (:
12. How you think people around you will feel about you? DRAMA-MAMA.
13. The characteristics you love of yourself are? That I am very strong on the inside, for myself and for others, AND that I am always smiling so that others will smile too (:
14. The most ideal person you want to be is? My sister <3 back to top?

what a fucking bitch.


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I am so darn bloody annoyed. Really. Something like this every year - every hari raya. i'm so darn annoyed tau. I slugged it out last night, cleaning the bloody house myself and the darn balcony, which, fyi was like fuck, and then you guys can't even wake me up in the morning for solat raya? IT was the MOST important thing to me. the most. I wanted to go. I COULD'VE gone to bed, and simply not care about the house - like the 2 fuckers. But no, i had to care, cos i wanted my raya to be a good one. Fuck. this happens every year. Something screws up my raya. AND i'm already missing my aidiladha. You know what. I couldn't care anymore. eatshitanddielah.selalu macam gini. abih, when i'm so angry, i feel bad. this sucks.selamat hari lebaran. back to top?