Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.

Monday, June 29, 2009 @ 11:54 Hey you with the pretty eyes! CHERYL BANACH POLAND PRAGUE YARH PRETTY LEE! This was supposed to be up EONS ago but my picture REFUSED REEEEEEEEEEEEFUSED TO LOAD ): boo. Okay, so well, I'm sorry its belated okay, I still love you like.. I love your room! HEHEE! WOKAAAY! immitates pierre! WHATEBBER! Eh sissie, you're just so fab you know? I don't think you know it. Well, infact, you're such a wonderful wonderful person, and I can only wish the best for you. You always try to see the good in things, you try your best not to judge. You follow your heart and you put your soul into your work, it's something I truly truly admire. You're really very much the leader, and I've seen how you help others, even me when I couldn't get my notes and you taught my section Janger parts when we couldn't get it. You're sincere, and humble - you'll never believe a word of praise, but take every step you can to make yourself better, Lee. You say I'm a pillar of strength for you but for me, when you were my friend, accepting me for who I am, and trusting me enough to share your sorrows and your woes, it was more than I could ask for; you made me feel love and accepted Lee. You say you're a weak person Lee, but when I look at you, all I see is a really strong person with so much love to give those around her. Remember our sudden sleepover?? Remember DOUGIE + DANNY and transylvannia and well STARGIRL! Remember starbucks at airport???? Remember the YARSS and the BANAAAAAAAAAAAAACH and the little secret we share about your toilet trip? winks Remember TAKING 132435298728970935278923 photos EVERYWHERE, ALL THE TIME? Remember the SNOWfall and the same M&S top we have?? Remember alexis' party and the dancing, the heart that goes on, the eating, the laughing, the tears? Remember the ~~spooky~~ honeymoon suite we shared, with matching red suitcases? Remember the little accidents I had in the room? laugh out loud Remember eating lots and lots of gum, playing "I have never..."? Remember LaSenza and all the teeny things we saw? HAHAA. Remember taking the photo of that guy at that town and I took a million and one shots?! Remember chasing each other around town just so that we could exchange gifts? Remember sharing our secrets and our sorrows? Remember our hugs we share, even though we only just saw each other the day before? I just wanted to remind you of some of the many fond memories I have of you, with you Lee. I miss you buckets and wish you ALL THE BEST FOR BT2s. I really really can't wait till we go out again, I really miss spending time with you. No matter what you or anyone else says, you're a beautiful person inside and out, and I'll always be there for you, no matter what. happiest eighteenth birthday, ee cherie. love, mmbobojan back to top?
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 @ 16:23 it's alright with me.. OKAY, I'm attempting to study.. lol. But at the same time I'm listening to great music - thanks to Perez hilton and myspace and my love for all sorts of music! and when it does i'm already gone... back to top?
Monday, June 22, 2009 @ 20:23 CALL ME... IRRESPONSIBLE.. Wokay. I just read the article from CNA about the no school holiday extension. You can see or hear every single Singaporean student going "omgknnccbwtfbbq" right now. HAHAHAH. Oh well, idle wishes eh? Anyhow, on a relatively serious note - the H1N1 thing is kinda creepy. I already know a friend of mine (or more of an acquaintance, really) contracted the H1N1 (formerly known as swineflu, babiflu, oinkflu. whatever luh). I mean, that my friend, is kinda creepy. And with the AYG and reports of the Filipino soccer player having contracted the flu, this disease, or whatever you'll call it, is more serious than it looks. From a more ~~paranoid~~ cautious point.of.view, can you imagine the hoards of people (kids, grannies, parents, trannies) all coming from everywhere around the world, back from their holiday. I mean if you know us Singaporeans, once MOH brought down the alert from red to yellow, everyone went back dialling Chan Brothers to book their tickets to someplace somewhere. Oh well, no on has any idea what will happen but let's all hope for the best, yeah? I mean what else can we do? If in the case that MOE does extend the break, who's to say that Singaporeans won't extend their own holidays? STILL. Prevention is better than cure, eh? ANYWAYS. on much more, lighter things - I think I'm so noob but HAHAH my fave Rachel Bilson is engaged to my fave Hayden Christensen. And omg I need the tenacity to continue studying. WHICH i will. HAHAH. No, really, I will! back to top?
@ 03:04 I wish i was in the US There's so much opportunity there, plus I'd get to see all the music acts that I'd like to ): Anyhow, listening to Starsailor. Fark. Their music brings me to another dimension, did i mention? back to top?
@ 00:48 Somewhere we went wrong..... Geesus. I can't get this song out of my head, the whole darn day. Not to mention the fact that this song is kinda depressing. But in a blatantly bad attempt to get it out of my head kan, I'll post it here. boo. not as happy as i was just moments ago )): back to top?
Sunday, June 21, 2009 @ 23:45 LIKE SAND THROUGH THE HOURGLASS.. So are the days of our lives... Betcha didn't know that I really really really loved Days of Our Lives as a kid, when it used to play on Channel 5 - if you don't know what that show is, this is the face I'm making at you right now... :O Well honestly, I really did love that soap opera when I was a kid and now its like totally totally way way way beyond anything I would be able to place my finger on. :D heheheh. I wish I had TiVo and could catch it ): She's so lucky :D Anyways, wow, I think today is a day full of surprises - a lost friend found, a star born.. Life could be better, but for now, I'm content. back to top?
Friday, June 19, 2009 @ 19:41 I'M BACK & I'M BROWN! :D Wow - The past 3 days were one helluva ride! So my mother, Shelley & me went on a 3D2N trip to Rawa Island - a tineetiny island in Malaysia that's pretty hush-hush. Its great to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city and just do nothing! I mean sure, a little voice in my head went CTs, CTs, CTs, and yeah, I was kinda worried about it - but I promised myself to have as much fun as I can now - its been ages since I've been on a holiday which was truly a holiday. (Okay, so me and shells did do some- just SOME - studying - BUT we really had to anyways!) Anyways, the island was GREAT! I mean, its not crowded/commercialised, the food's to die for (I'm talking lasagna, roast beef, lamb, fish..etcetc...), the beach+sea is just mesmerizing, the staff is just amazing - better than I could ask for (: We headed off on Wednesday morning (damn early) from Singapore to Johor Bahru, Johor Bahru to Mersing (the terminal that has boats going off to tonnes of other islands) and from Mersing (on speedboat) to Rawa Island. Arrived (at about 1pm?), lunched, checked-in (at about..2?), changed, yadayada and BAM! there marks the start of 3 days of having fun and lazing around too (: We snorkeled, swam, jumped off the jetty, camwhored with Shell's totally waterproof camera, slide down the famous slide - by the time we returned the equipment (my mom managed to lose one snorkel set.zomg) it was alr 7plus and we headed back to our beachfront chalet for a shower, which took damn long ergo making us late for dinner - about 30mins left before buffet closed? lol. After dinner we headed back, stargazed a bit, repainted our chipped nails, studied on our balcony before heading to LALA LAND! SIDETRACK: You have no idea, and i mean NONE, how much we're missing out living in such a lighted up city like Singapore. I swear, I was blown away, amazed, awestruck (and a long list of words all meaning the same thing) when I looked up into the sky at night, on my first night there. There's so many stars, a GAZILLION of them, just staring back at me, and the stars just go on, and on and on. It's really really REALLY beautiful beyond compare, I swear - I just tremble in its utter beauty. We managed to spot out some constellations, found the biggest brightest northstar - oh man, that's one thing I'll miss most. In the lighted up city we're in, there's simply no chance. Anyhow, slept late and woke up late, LIKE SUPER LATE - breakfast was like ending in 25mins when we woke up, so we chiong to go zao can! YUMMY - had pancakes, bread, etc etc and went on for a kayak around the whole island! IT'S POSSIBLE, apparently so! LOL! it was superduper fun luh - we saw caves and tonnes of sea birds - plus the thrill of the sport was simply great, cos the waters was choppy and currents were strong but we fought it ~~bitches~~ plus the whole "fear" of getting stranded into the open sea made it even more exciting! I know I'm weird! By the time we got back it was lunch, and after lunch me and shells tanned for like an hour plus and BOOM my mom came to tell us that apparently a storm was coming so she told us to get a taste of the water a bit more before it started to rain! So we swam a bit and whooossshh strong winds blew our way. It was a bummer, BUT also pretty fun, cos whilst my mom went to the tv room, me and Shells went to our chalet, dried up and cosied up on the bed watching TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU on my handphone. Did i mention heath ledger is a god? After the storm ended and the sun peek-a-boo-ed a little bit, we went back out for a swim, before going for dinner, wet and all! Lol. We showered and watch tv after dinner @ the tv room, and used the internet a little bit. Oh and went back to our chalet and stargazed a bit. If I could photograph the sky, I would. (zomg. last night!) Well, we were supposed to go trekking - I really really wanted to do it before sunrise, I even woke up and all - but those LAZY BUMS didn't wanna )): Oh well, anyways, we woke up + packed up+changed for the beach (since we had until...2pm before we left the island) & headed for a heavy yummy breakfast. Then we snorkeled more, and I brought my mum snorkeling - darn proud of my deep-water-phobic mom, she really pulled through :P After we snorkelled, me and shells suntanned (& we forgot sunblock zomg) for like half an hour and we headed back to the chalet to shower and change whilst mummers went to check out! Later, we headed to the neighboring chalet for drinks (MY HOLIDAY FAVE IS NOW PINA COLADA!) and we ate calamari & mee goreng (mum's). We also took some awesome pics where the rocks were, and before we knew it, the boat honked, marking our time to go! )): It was beautiful indeed + we made friends with a young couple with an adorable 7 yr old son and a delightful 6months old baby girl :D Life's a beach, eh? Pics are on FB (: back to top?
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 @ 02:06 One last thing. What you might be doing.... AND WHERE I'll BE! <3 back to top?
Tuesday, June 16, 2009 @ 22:21 TO PROTECT THE WORLD FROM DEVASTATION.... Wah, I had a study session with SHELLEY at school today. PHWOAR! Did one kick-ass mindmap (damn huge can) and like I attempted one econs question. I don't know luh - I think the progress was a bit...zomg. But I think all that matters is I did something today. WHAT WITH TOMORROW ME GOING OFF TO A NICE RESORT ISLAND - wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! Oh well, my brother is like cleaning out his room and found my PRIMARY SCHOOL HANDBOOK. So i was looking through it.. and found that I wrote something pretty cool on the first page: To protect the world from devestaition, To unite our people within our nation, To deanouns the evil of truth an love, To extend our reach to the stars above, So there I am thinking...whoa, minus a few spelling errors, I must've been a thoughtful child :D THEN... Jesie, James, Team Roket blast of to the speed of light. CHEY. My old obsession with POKEMON! Lol. Chey. Oh well, I'm looking forward to some sun and fun tomorrow, but like with my night study sessions too! :D Lols... Insya Allah (: ohoh. photo session in my bro's room! my handbook :P oh. and beeteedoubleyou. I had great time with these people this hols :D <3 back to top?
@ 03:11 Oh what the hell. I know I said I wouldn't, but I really couldn't help myself. Because getting new skins is like buying new clothes. Fucking addiktive. Besides, every new one feels..liberating. what would jesus say? back to top?
@ 00:34 I can't help myself. I just feel like blogging a bit You know that nostalgic feeling you get when you think about the good times, or bite into that good ole' soup your mom used to make for you when you're little? I have just been hit by a KICKASS wave of nostalgia. Okay, ask me on a bad day, and I'll prolly tell you that generally, the past few years of my life is also the worst few years of my life, secondary school and all. But then when you ask me on a day when I'm thinking more maturely, the past few years really wasn't all that bad. (a voice in my head begs to differ, but I shall still carry on!) Honestly, HONESTLY, I know I wasn't the BESTESTEST person during my teen years - but i certainly wasn't the worst, for sure. I mean, I was a LOT noisier than now (seriously guys, my noise level's dropped mucho since my secondary school days) and well, I was just a kid ~~or to an extent everyone else around me was still behaving like little kids~~ EITHERWAY, I would say that secondary school was definitely an experience of tremendous learning, and though there are many things I'd do different, I don't think I'll change it. I don't know - there was kinda a lot of growing pains for me, and well, many people who knew which switch would turn on all my insecurities, so well. Not always pleasant, but necessary, I guess. Okay, all this ramblemumblemisunderstandable things about secondary school - well, actually it really really really wasn't all that horrid (though I'm sure I've got certain things that I'll never forget and not at all for the good bits) I think I've learned a lot and gained a hell load of good friends that'll last me a lifetime. Well, a bucket loads luh - Zenners, Kings, Adel, Fadilah & Fadilah, many other malay people, Safiah - so much love from one place in my heart. Cedar. Aiye. Honestly, I've been told countless of times that I manage to surprise people - like Cheryl (from SA) for example - whereby knowing ME is a hell lot different from what they thought it would be. I'm just afraid people who never really knew me, will only remember me as a loud/outspoken/boisterous type that is a fleeting memory of their past. But then I must also remember, all the other people I don't really really know are also just that - fleeting momentos of my past. It's like what goes around, comes around, and that we're all really just the same. What's the biggie about wanting to be special, Jans? Cos if everyone's special then no one really is, right? Lol, just a bunch of thoughts running through my head. Its funny, as it is for everyone, all my thoughts go through a filter - a giant filter actually and the actual things that get posted on this blog are not even half of the things that really run through my head. Their all just scudding clouds, you know. Things that are totally evanescent - what I do in my day, what movies I've watched. Who really cares? heh. Even if no one bloddy cares, I know a warm fuzzy feeling will run through my body when I look through those archives and read these posts, and the little clues I leave myself in the post that lead up to the bigger thoughts and secrets that are actually running through my head. scudding clouds. back to top?
Monday, June 15, 2009 @ 23:44 I'm possibly the winner of the Ms. Procrastinator 2009 AWARD! I swear, at the rate I'm going, you WON'T have any questions or doubts about my current disposition. Lol. Anyways had HI TEA today with Adel at Carousel@Royal Plaza on Scotts. The food was good luh, but not exactly what I was hoping for cos i wanted WESTERN but they were super ASIAN. OH vell. And i met Osman+Shawn+otherEXcedarians+Saints in town today - small world small world. I've been going to town a lot. ALMOST 3 days in a row. But well, my I've been craving for hi-tea, so I went and made my dreams REALITY! HAHAH. Ohmygad. A few more days before school starts. (i KNOW its about 13 days but to me that's damn little alr!) gaaaaaaaaaaarh. ceetees.shits. back to top?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009 @ 00:36 I want us ALL to be happy together. ALL, and by all I mean everyone one of us that once was. Things have changed but well, I really wish they were back to what once was. I've gotta grow up, and let it go - if we all mature from this, we'll grow from this right? So many thoughts, rushing through my head like cars in rush hour. I feel kinda bad, but I don't know where the way out is or what the solution is - but I wish we could overcome this adversity lying in our path. I had a fantabulous day today, filled with so much food! Yummy food. HAHAHA. shitters - so bad but so good. Firqin and I met at school and studied together (the progress was okay but could've been better kan? :D) and went on to Kampong Gelam, where we met Hayati cos we wanted to do the Art Jamming thing we found at the shop after we all went to do Batik Painting with MCS! But turns out the Art jamming thing costs a BOMB, so we ended up going for lunch first since Firqin and I was damn hungry. Due to the BLOODY weather, we ended up at Rumah Minang, since the food's yummy and there was aircon! CHEAP AND GOOD MALAY FOOD. that's the way, uhuh uhuh, we like it! We ate and cost us each about...5 bucks ++? Yum. We were laughing at a truckloads of stuffs - especially the speed and agility at which I sedut my siput sedut! TSK TSK, ketawa lagi kat aku. We went to walk around and went inside every stall at Haji Lane - Firqin bought a top, which was cute! We all impi nak datang balik (hmm maybe with the rest of the MRC people!) cos there's A LOT of stuff to buy! :D Went back to Bugis, ate Lor Mee + Beard Papa + Chewy Junior & headed our separate ways! A good time we definitely had (: I only hope there's room for more days like this, and with more people I love (: back to top?
Sunday, June 07, 2009 @ 20:30 HAPPY KINGS BIRTHDAY! wow, to think... 6 long years and we're still laughing our asses off whenever we meet each other, as though nothing's changed! :D this weekend is like jannah's funniests quotes... "there's more malays here than at an east coast bbq" "did i step in tampines?" "omg its moving. it's moving. its FRUCKING MOVING!" "like wake up and BAM, i'm in my house. Talk about accessibility!" oh. back to top?
Friday, June 05, 2009 @ 12:53 SHALALALA... Okay, I'm a bit nutsers right now! Like a little. HAHA. Okay let me give you the hoedown-showdown! SEE, yesterday (or if you're a prick, this EARLY morning), I was watching finish my Korean dramas (don'task) and BOOM, i remembered.. I'VE GOT K'S ASSIGNMENT TO DO ~ in the midst of all the ahnyong haseyos and the kamsahamnidas, I totally forgot about the Taming assignment that is due FRIDAY 12noon. DOUBLEYOUTEEEFF. But like any normal student who's not slept doing an assignment, I went to go hunt for my computer just to finish it up. BUT THANKS TO CERTAIN people, I was unable to get hold of my macbook. So well, logic told me to get some rest and get it done the next day. which i did! :D I finished the bloody thing, and I think I did a pretty okay job to boot PLUS cabbed down to school to ram it down the mouth of Pigeon hole #66. cue: HALLELUJAH! Hahaha, yes, if I'm just a bit high now, forgive me. I really can't help myself. Well, I'm on a revolt right now at home. So i shall continue on my revolt! Toodles! (: back to top?
Monday, June 01, 2009 @ 14:15 Maybe it's all in my head, but things have kinda changed Before i go on to talk about how weird it is that my blog is as dead as it is, I just have to say that I realised somethings have changed - like I don't know.. its in the air or something. But eitherway, something's changed. Hmmm. looks around the room Oh well. Change is everywhere right? So well, an update... hmmm. My mom's back from her trip to North America - she went to Canada and US, see. And well, like what my mom would normally do, she bought tonnes of stuff for me. Jeans, bags, tops, shoes, you name it. Which kinda makes me a pretty happy person for now, like i've got my own personal shopper. HAHAHA. No but seriously, all these goodies do NOT come without strings attached. I had a LOT of fun when she was away ~ staying out till late, sleepovers here and there.. but now, things are back to the status quo and I don't know if I quite like it. My mom and dad have extremely different parenting values. My dad's ever the democrat, my mum's ever the authoritarian; and no, I'm not being melo-dramatic - after all the drama I've had in my 18 years of life, I ain't kidding. SO yeah, with my mom back, Jannah's back on house arrest. HAHAHA, okay, maybe a teeny bit dramatic. But I find it aggravating and amusing (99% aggravating, 1% amusing) how my parents (well, when I say parents I really mean mom, cos my mom kinda gets her way a lot) nag at me for slothing around at home during the hols, telling me I ought to "get a hobby" "see the sunshine.." BUT scream and interrogate me when I finally go out with my friends. HAIX, family, can't be with them, can't be without them. So yeah, its back to those days when my every move is being watched - no, i do not enjoy it nor appreciate it. But heck, not like I've got a waiting list of friends dying to date me. (WHERE ARE YOU PEOPLE?!) hahahahaah. sorry, a bored person stuck at home without any airconditioning, may end up being a little.. wacko. I've sat for ONE of my many Common Test papers - GP. Lol. It wasn't too bad, I've sat worse. Well, I've got about 3weeks plus to prep for my other Papers. Bah. I'm kinda looking forward to it. Plus, I really ought to do my research on SATs. so much to do (: OH and how can I forget - went out with Adel yesterday, and we caught 2 movies, The Young Victoria and Dance! Subaru. PLUS we lazed around town, cos we had NO plan of what to do, but were just out anyways. Both the movies were great, I suspect Chee will LOVE it. HAHAHA, but well, it was a pretty good day, though fruitless! love. back to top?