I had a so-so week. By so-so I mean some days were indeed awesome, and some, well not. There were times when I felt so pressed for time, I wanted to pull out my hair. There were moments where I could've bitten people's heads off. Hahaha. No but seriously. Stressful, certainly. I mean it's not as if I expect myself to be cruising through life, but wow.

But meeting adel, almost ALWAYS makes things so much better. Always. Undoubtedly. She has always been the yin to my yang. Really..soulmates <3 She always know the right things to say, and always tell me things that I have to hear, being honest with me always. She makes things so much better, just by her utter silliness. And she always wants the best for me, as I do her. No one is as sincere as her, in my view.

Life's going to be so different without her just around the corner. Well, not literally, cos she lives in the East either way, though considering she's going to be continents away... things will be so different. I love her with all my heart and I'm really excited for this lap in her life; we've been talking about it since we were 13, so yes, about time. I hope I'll be able to join her, someday.. or at least be in the same region. Haha. Wow, life's moving on fast eh? To think it was five years ago that we were sitting at the same table in the art room working on our batik piece and discussing our life plans. I am so glad I asked the teacher to change my seat in sec 1/O last time and I ended up seated next to this girl, for the next year and a half. And well, 6 years on, we're still seated across from each other discussing our life as we know it.


<3

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This past week, has been.. well.. tiring to say the least. Yet at the same time.. so filled with lessons. I forgot what it means to have to work for something and though my efforts may not match up to some of those around me, I know that the very fact that I tried.. that has to count for something. Sigh. I swear, part of me is grateful that I at least have a sturdy foundation to fall back on. Had I studied harder, I'd have definitely aced this exams. Just being honest - the papers could've been a hell lot worse, but across the board, they weren't. I mean, lest for some potholes along the way *cough*Housekeeping*cough* they were all generally manageable. Hence, I would be very disappointed in myself should I not clear, let alone do well - disappointed not because I think I'm fabulous and can make it through (hardyharhar) but because I'd be disappointed in myself for not studying.

There's a lot to learn, you know. I kinda remember now how it feels like to be back studying..back in the game. It feels good actually. To remember that my purpose is to study and achieve what it is that I want, whatever that is. I've had all time to study for blocks, but I left it (as always) to the last minute and this time it really took a toll on my mind and soul. Sleep deprivation (and those who know me know that I don't mean simply sleeping at 2 or 3am but really not sleeping till the paper's done), cramming my brain with information without giving it time to naturally absorb it, wow. I had like a migraine after every paper and there's of course the exhaustion, plus after my papers on thursday and friday I kept feeling nauseous. HAHA, I'm not lamenting and whining - I know very well I brought this on to myself. But I'm also writing it all out here so that when my future self backtracks these posts, she'll remember that money is not the root of all evil, but procrastination is.

So the lesson is, if you want something you have to work for it. Mediocrity is not enough, especially when excellence beckons.

Besides that, life's the same, I guess. I've been a little lost lately, sometimes for good reasons, sometimes for things that well.. I wish just wasn't. There are things I wanna say to some people I love, but I just don't know how. I know I shouldn't take it seriously, but it's beginning to get very frustrating. Ah, whatever.

So, one more paper before BT2 is officially apart of history. Literally. I can't wait for some sun. And for some bonding time with Firqin (I reallllllyyyy miss this one a lot! Like seriously haven't gotten to bond with her. haaha) and for Eclipse with Lukman (damnwhyhispapersendlaterthanmineeeee) and Lyana's 21st on the 17th (aaaaaaaahfreakout!<3) and well to keep studying and well, for these 5 months to pass with grace. And God. And happiness.

Here's to looking forward <3

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"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah" - The Notebook

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