Fabulosity

I think I had pretty normal week, but a great weekend. Honest.

Went airport and studied my butt off. AND well, i've had a good time doing it. And i met adel. Nothing beats that (:

Happiest birthday lim chee yang! omg so old! ahaahaha ((: hugs!

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Love, love love makes the world go round

Alrighty so Valentine's Day just came and went, and we all know yours truly usually does a little something something when d-day comes around! And also, my brother will be flying off tonight to AUSTRALIA; Tasmania in fact! He's doing his UNI there! (ooh! ahh~~) So BEFORE V-day, I baked a cake for my brother's farewell dinner! A yummy chocolate cake:D

Oh and on the drive to school on Wednesday, the sky was just so beautiful - there was kind of a jetstream or whatever its called in the blue blue sky! (:

They put up this web of friendship/love/whatev at the school & this board with envelopes, so you could put in the messages you want to your eyecandy or whatsnots and place them in his/her class' envelope. GUESS who was 08s26's Mr Popular?

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Its like.. Rush hour in my head, and I don't mean the movie

FYI, those traffic lights really exist, somewhere. Still - I really feel that way; things telling me to stop and go at the same time, not knowing where to look and stuff. I'm telling you, its all unnecessary stress. Really. I dunno where all of it is coming from. There's this like void space in me, and I don't know what to do - I swear. I mean the friend factor; that's going pretty well. With the newbies, the OG89s, the MRC the always and forever in my hear 08s26, and friends here and there - I'm pretty set in that department. I'm having a good time, and well, there's no apparent reason for my distress, really.

I dunno.

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Woah. That time of the year again.

Other than the fact that I am stuck in a time warp of all things that sounds,looks and are the same as what I've gone through last year, I'm quite excited that its THAT TIME OF THE YEAR AGAIN. You know, the season of love. No matter how screwed up it may be, I'm excited. I get to live my school drama again, like how it was in secondary school. Unlike last year where I wasn't in a jc at this time of the year - that was a definitely different Valentines. I mean, the primary 4 friends outing, sec 4 clique outing and work combined to one. Not exactly my cuppa tea. You know, having to jump from work, then to my Kings outing, then to my date with P4 friends. Like, WOAH. Good and interesting times. But I don't know, I guess this year's different. No longer like how it would be in a girls school - its prolly more exciting, cos you know the opposite gender can be found in a 2m radius, to say the least.

Still, its the one time I usually love and hate going to town. I love it, cos the air is filled with so much sweetness - so much! I mean all the girls carrying mini bouquets, holding the hands of the one who has their heart - its such a positive day. I guess seeing so much love, even if superficial, gives that little inkling of hope; hope of better times, hope that one day all this love can just gravitate and radiate in others, hope that the world will love each other more..

All you need is love

I'm such a soppy fool, I'm sure I'm such a bore. Oh right, AT THE SAME TIME, I hate going to town on that day, cos its a reminder that I am single and it just smacks you in the face. Well, I don't hate it that much really - but you know sometimes you just feel like rolling your eyes to the back of your head when you see all this. Still the love of this day outweighs my hate for it. Aish- hate's just too strong a word.

School's weird - ish. I dunno, so many things are happening that I almost enjoy sitting by myself quietly, and less interaction. No Rasul, I'm not angry at anyone :D! Maybe something's bothering me, but I have yet to figure anything out. All I know is that I just wanna get things done, I just wanna be happy. EFF. I don't make sense, not to me. I JUST WANNA FEEL LESS stress - I have a stress web in myself, of origins that I do not know of. Stress seh.

Chill lah sister. hahah!

I dunno what I'm gonna do this Saturday. SUPPOSED OGR/OG33/OG89 outing, but well dunno about that. And CEDAR Fiesta. And Madrasah. But how sure am I something will not go as planned, and I'm gonna spend that day watching that chinese movie I'm looking forward to? Quite sure. But, of course, a night with friends seem oh so sweeter! :D

Nights world.
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OOh wee, look at me!

I got posted to 09A07!



The class list! :D

Seems alright. You know, I'm always game that way. Anyways shitters. Today started off a bit bleh. Me & Krystal went to meet Sakinah for the HC Vday thing. And well, discipline talk was ongoing - something well, that I've sat for like a guai J1 when term first started last year, AND another time last year, and well, another one at the start of this year. So in all, it'd be my FOURTH discipline talk. So logically, I wasn't looking forward to it, cos its the same same thing. No one, in their right mind would be. So me and krystal ate at the caf for a while. Okay, stoop right, shouldn't have pon discipline talk. hc some more. tsk jan. AND THEN to make matters stupidly worse, I was playing with my HC badge, the one I shouldn't be wearing but accidentally wore cos I was just playing with it since I was supposed to pass it to Wati. So well, Ms Su saw me in the caf, and scolded me, naturally. I was guilty duh - shouldn't have been there. But like I didn't realise I was still wearing the badge - so Ms Su scolded me about that too. Like shit leh - jan, how dumb can you get. So dumb. What a way to start the day/term; having my house mistress think I'm a deliquent now. GRR. The stupid things I do, amaze me. Oh well. Learnt from that one. Still, cos of this, she surely won't allow me to help out for House time. Boo. (yes yes, i'm pissed i made such mistakes. haix)

BUT WELL. The day lightened up. Ms K's lecture was definitely FAR from boring, and well I'm almost hopeful about taking H2 Literature! I mean I really hope I do well! :D History was funny cos Mr Tan just told retainees that we could just pon this lecture, when we were already sitting in LT4. Cos he has just gone through the content with us. Econs. Bleh. Don't need to say. First econs lecture (or subsequent lectures even) will be so bleh. Oh Maths. I almost feel dumb for taking h1 Maths. Cos I did well for Amaths & Emaths. And well, the first h1 lecture was so... basic? Like so emaths/amaths. I hope I don't regret it.

I mean I'm actually quite glad. I'm really looking forward to my academic year. And my co-corricular one too! I hope you come support me at college play! And at the same time, I pray that everything in my path to success goes smoothly, even if things like long & horrid queues at the photocopy shop does cobble-stone my path. :D LOL.

I'm feeling good about this year.

Oh I went to Ameerah's house after school to do the madrasah project work - which, I think will help bring me closer to God, and to understand my religion altogether! YAY. I like the topic, cos its so personal, and something I can relate to. Then she came over my place and we played guitar, chatted and stuff. I really love that girl! :D


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For anyone who's suffering, having a bad day, or when life seems just too hard to comprehend - this one's for you



Don't care about the singer, just love the song.

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She's a lady... And Ladies, shouldn't be messed with

Alrighty then, here are the pictures (:













Haha, I was too lazy to post more!

this is a totally slack sunday i swear. Its almost trivial. But I guess its prepping me for my totally crazy MONDAY! 0.o

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Woah! You have much to fear, you have much to fear!

*AHHCHOOOOOOO!* damn, I'm sick now. omgknnccbwtfbbq!

I swear - I do not regret going for orientation at all. I mean, yeah, there were some things that weren't exactly my cup of tea (there's a list, in fact) BUT, meeting my OHGEETWENTYTWO isn't something I regret. This orientation, felt like mine - a memory I didn't get to experience, which has now become my memory. HAHA, I don't even know if I got that. But well whatever. ANYWAYS. Hmm, i loved today - probably one of the most fruitful orientation day for me. FOR ONE, there was more TOGETHER time, cheering and stuff.

STRESS you know, cos I had to perform for both Choir & Malay Cultural Society , both performance involves SINGING - so cannot lose voice. The whole earlier part of the day, I was QUIET-ish. (YES- I NUR JANNAH CHEANG IS CAPABLE OF SHUTTING UP.) Don't cheer and stuff - thats why when mass dance, will dance like ALL out, or else too much CONTAINED excitement. Lol.

I really enjoyed singing my last performance with choir. The memories just flood, as in flood like freaking tsunami, and well I end up crying when we were practicing the other day, singing "Resonemus Laudibus". Seriously cry, like shit, but I totally controlled it, and well my specs red so my red eyes didn't look TOOOOOO obvious. I mean, for one, its all the great times I spend with the choir - PRAGUE PRAGUE, singing in hospitals, shopping areas, VCH, with the TJC, with the sco, etc etc. And well, its all the lovely memories of making music. But most of all, its being on stage, singing - KNOWING that you're doing the best you can, performing the best you can, and well, just singing - cos its simply your passion. *goosebumps* WOAH. It feels so saddening, not doing it anymore - so I'm glad I did my last performance, and it was a good one.

AND not to forget the MCS one. EH EH EH EH AHHHH Wah sia, I mean, I don't think my singing was great - I was either tired/out of breath. But well, I'm happy its done, the J1s laughed at the right parts, and overall enjoyed it I guess. I'm so happy the people involved involved themselves in the first place. And did the best they could. Kudos to all. (:

I really enjoyed Orientation. I mean all that dang cheering and dancing - its so me. I mean its what I enjoy most. From Beat It, to the OGR/OG33/OG89's fave the SHAKE IT!! I mean, its super fun lah (if its your thing). The finale was really the BOMB! NERIAH the kingdom I belong to, won the dance one - I mean it was really hands down, since they were quite synchronised and the SOLO pop'n'lock guy. OH EMM GEE. Really. And well, having that feeling of unity and togetherness that was once in the heart and soul of every Cedarian, nothing can beat that feeling man. AND WELL the OG-Rs are a crazy bunch of people really. During the final mass dance, we went up on stage and totally shaked-it! WITH the whole Charles in the centre thing! I mean super fun. Except for the fact I was super sweaty and realised that I had face paint on my face and so I ended up sweating RED drops

HAHAHA.


Well I can't wait for school to start-I'm gonna study my "balls" off (the ones which i don't have obviously); mark my words! I hope we all have fun and do well, my lovely OG 22 (:

OHOH, we had house dinner the other time! Oh gosh, that was lovely and effing funny! Channel 5 presents to you...the EYE! Hahaha, how did i get so funny! ANYWAYS, eating together, lo-hei-ing together, having tonnes of fun and more, seriously great times together. I love Ninth so much, and I love Gomes. TO THE MAX.








will update with orientation pics soon! :D
alrighty, going on with my day now. Darn, 2 overdue library books! ARGH!

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Sometimes the rainbow comes, but everything else is fuddled up.

I'm finally back - its been only a short while, but it feels like forever though. I feel like I've been keeping my emotions in for a while - weird (: Anyways, so many things have been happening since the last time I blogged.

Like for one - I've grown more comfortable with being in my predicament, no longer caring what others think, not too much that is. I mean, its still partially difficult to not see the ones I love so dearly - Chee, Jo, Kwoi, the rest of S26 - everyday, but I knew that that would be the part of the bargain that I would have to bear. I mean, at the same time, being a retainee has helped me do one thing - Start Fresh. I mean, like a freshly cleaned towel fresh. It feels good. I mean, at the same time, I'm enjoying myself, and learning to appreciate tonnes of things I took for granted - studying being one of them. And I get to rethink my decisions which could've been the cause of myself being in the predicament I am in.

Then of course, there's the tonnes of new friends I've made - the retainee students. I'm really grateful to have that bunch of friends. I mean we're not ALL tight like this *cross fingers* but well we make our time with each other worthwhile. I mean, seriously, it feels great to be around people who truly understand your troubles, the difficulties your facing - everything. And i mean truly .

That's my class - Class B; in the PHOTO OF THE MOMENT!

Oh and well, recently for the CNY Celebrations, the MCS performed a dikir barat for the school, and honestly speaking it was truly a wonderful time spent with friends, learning about my culture and being really really proud of it! I've made good friends along the way, making a fool of ourselves onstage, etc! Oh well, it was definitely good times!



One of the most important thing that is ongoing now would be 2009 Orientation ! NOT that i'm not orientated with the school. I really wanted to go, cos I didn't get to experience Orientation. AND WELL, I also wanted to meet the j1 batch, which would obviously be my peers, and if I'm lucky enough, one of my greatest friends! I mean, of course I want the J1s to enjoy it more, and participate more - it is THEIR orientation more than mine, when push comes to shove! However, the other day, really before orientation begun, the school admin thought that it would be better if we didn't go for orientation. Apparently, previous years' feedback of retainees going for orientation showed that well, it wasn't something SOME people enjoyed. However, our batch of retainees really wanted to go so the school created this "middle ground consensus" which many of us thought was just crap not the best for us. So well, we rallied up, petitioned, and well in away "fought" to be allowed to go full-time. I mean, honestly, I feel orientation really helps a person grow, retainee or not. So in the end of the day, we did go - duh!

Its been great, I'm in OG22, and they're really a wonderfully adorable OG as far as the people are concerned. I'm comfortable with them, and well, I enjoy sharing with them my point of view and my experiences with them, hopefully helping them choose a path that suits them best as they carry on in the journey of their lives.

I'll have more details up soon, but for now just some pictures! ((:







I swear this year isn't that easy - honestly. I mean there's still so much things to get done, so much studying to do, so much stress - sometimes I wonder if it'll all be worth it. But then I look into my diary, and realise that it all is there, and its up to me to make the best of it (:

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