Hello world. I haven't been able to blog much. BEEN A BUZZZY BUMBLE BEEE. For reals. I do not know if ANYONE realizes this - like seriously take time to think about it - but freaking DECEMBER'S in...about...3.5hours??? December. Then after that, it'll be january, and then we're getting used to writing 2010 in our dates! So fast. Next year, the LAST year of my JC career. I never thought saying that would feel so good :) *smiles to all who matter*

Anyways, I've been really...hmm.. tired is the only word I can think of, but it's not really the BEST fitting word. But yeah, just tired.. Well, if it's not JCLP, it's Borders. If not, it's SATs. If not, it's THAT.THING.THAT.MAKES.ME.SCREAM.youknowwhathearts. If not, it's that cutie that drives me crazy. HAHAHAH.

Eitherway, my heart is beating nice and hard, adrenaline pumping in and out, and the brain is in constant work. I'm not unhappy about it - I think its the most productive I've ever been in vacation! I just hope that I still "enjoy" myself in the process.

Anyways, talking about that cutie that drives me crazy.. he's such a cutie, and he drives me crazy. And as far as i'm concerned, I need not be concerned about anything - it'll die off in a while. heee. the cutie at work (:

JCLP's awesome-ish. I mean I don't feel like I'm wasting my time, and we get to sit in for court hearings etc - today we sat in for juvenile court. I swear I almost cried. Anyways, yeah. We don't have too much to do, or nothing to do, so its all good (:

Border's is fab too - bonding with more colleagues, especially Sarah CARmariah. HAHAA and well getting the Borders mojo. (:

SIGH. I think I'm gonna fuckup SATs, but I like...almost...don't care. Its kinda scary >.< hahahahah


OH WELL.
TOMORROW WATCHING NINJA ASSASSIN! WHEEEEE.

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CRAP! Didn't take a photo of what I cooked with Hearts.. SIGH. But it was yummy..

Together we made:

1. Campbell Cream of Mushroom
2. Sauteed Onions
3. Sauteed Mushrooms
4. Sauteed Bell Peppers
5. French fries
6. FARKING YUMMY DONE AS YOU LIKE IT Sirloin Steak+gravy.
7. Creme Caramel Custard

WOW. Heeee. The sirloin steak was so delish. And done with the help of Oliver. Jamie Oliver, that is. I was beyond proud of my steaks, done for 3 people - my brother, me and Hearts - and it was perfect to each ones liking. CONSIDERING IT WAS MY FIRST TIME. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee. And its so simple, really. Just get the steaks cut to your liking, then with some olive oil+salt+blackpepper and well a little worcestershire sauce (oh and the thing is if you put the sauce then HOLD the ladle fulls of salt. BALANCE. cos the sauce is salty too). THATS ALL bitches. SO not like some recipes where there's a THOUSAND little ingredients. HAAHAHAH. Yay. (can you tell I'm super happy?) So the only...challenging part would be how to cook it to just the way you like it right??

Jannah: medium
Hearts: medium-rare
Redhuan (my brother): medium-welldone (but by the good graces of forgetfullness he got hearts one instead of his. the plates got swopped accidentally! >.<)

I read on the Jamie Oliver webbie that the rule of thumb of cooking steak is as everyone knows is all in the timing and the heat right? So Jamie said (see, we're on a First Name basis!) for about 2cm thick steak that's about 200g, you have it about 2mins on each side, for medium rare.. SO FLIP FLIP FLIP, and some agar-ation here and there and BOOM. Here you go. Hmmm, how does it look like??

This is his:


Imagine my steak to be half the width, and WITHOUT the sauce underneath it (his has peanut sauce).

PLUS

Imagine JUST the ONIONS. :D

PLUS

THESE mushrooms. But on an old tefal pan. AHHAAH.

PLUS

Bell-peppers like these only CUBED and more sauteed and well-done :D

AND THEN..
IMAGINE them all in one plate! WHEEEEE.

It was good, it was fun.. it was totally spontaneous. HEE :D

Yet another lovely Sunday with Hearts.

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this totally made me roffl. heeeeeeee back to top?

FYI. Something bad did happen the day I thought something bad was gonna. HAHAH. Well it isn't horrid (thank god) but my till was short $10. SIGHHHHHHH. But it could've been worse. Anyways it was my fault - apparently it was a cash error. So.. boo ):

Anyways, I find it awesome that no matter how many days I've been working, it never gets bored - I think a lot of it has something to do with the fact that in the customer service department, everyday is a new day. When you're working with people, things get...interesting.

I've met so many different types of people - CREEPS who give me the sly grin and stare at my every move as they pay at my counter. I swear I got the goosebumps, and I don't mean the nice kind. There are also the people who ask stupid questions -ZOMG. And there's the omgwtfbbqknnccb type that ask things like "CAN I JUST BORROW THE BOOK?!"

Most days I come home with a chockfull of memories, for sure.

Enough about work though.

Wednesday, Superman and America came over to my place, and we had pasta, chips, oranges and drinks whilst watching Across the Universe and enjoying the cool rainy weather. That's life. It was fun and chillax, so super.

Hmm, anything else?

Oh well, this is work related, without actually being about WORK. I can't believe how much more subdued I am around the people at work - like I don't know, I brought back down to my secondary school days... Where I am more quiet cos I'm scared and nervous about how I should behave. Weird, ain't it??? Sigh. I mean, part of me thinks that I'd probably mix well with some of my colleagues, cos they're very much like me, I think. But then the other part of me thinks that I still have to earn that ability to be as comfortable as they are with one another.

I feel like the new kid in school with no friends, YET i do have friends. Alas, with the powers of the shiftmakers mean that I don't get to work with the same people all the time.. So well, I guess I have to learn to grow up:D

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I have no idea why, but I feel alone and as if there's a hole in my heart. Like something's not right. It's a horrible feeling.

was it the denouement from watching that series? is it really cos something bad has happened?

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*SOBS* We both forgot to take photo. SIGGGGGGH. It's okay. I got my "bookcover" photo. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
Anyways, yesterday was a LOVELY Sunday and the 3rd episode of Sunday With Hearts. We went all the way to the West (CCK) - which is damn funny cos when I said (in narrator-esque voice):
"This week, on Sundays With Hearts.."
she said:
"We'll be heading off to the West...of Singapore
which made me say (without narrator voice):
"Oh chey. I thought why West sia. Today we hunting for Korean food what. Korea in the EAST. Sekali you meant SINGAPORE."

I had a great time being a jakon - never been to this side of Singapore. So Hearts basically was my tour guide. Anyways, we went somewhere she used to go to a lot in her secondary school days - the mall at CCK, where she said had good Korean food. AND SHE WAS SO RIGHT. It was darn awesome possum. I was SO excited to find proper halal korean food - FYI: SEOUL GARDEN ISN'T KOREAN FOOD. KOREANS WOULD BE EMBARRASSED - WHAT WITH THE DIMSUMS, FRIES, PASTAS THEY SERVE AT THE SIDE >.< I felt super spoilt for choice. HEEE. But I had Beef BBQ set, and wah I had rice cake thingy as a side - I've been wanting to have the rice cake thingy! In Korea, they have like random street vendors outside schools selling the thing. IT WAS YUMMY SHIT MAN.

Then we lepak-ed around, bought dessert, went to YISHUN after that, drank bubble tea, lepak summore. Then I had to go work. SOBS. It was a super short outing, I swear ): But nonetheless, I need my dose of Hearts - at LEAST once a week. If not I feel really lonely and isolated from friends etc. I find it great that one day in the week is set aside for her, I just hope it'd be a regular thing (:

Thanks HEARTS for being awesome possum, and layaning all my merapek meraban and all my stories - which you know I tell from A-Z, yet you'll still sit down and patiently listen!

Of late, a bunch of my friends have been having some not so great days - either being disturbed by some IDIOTS or simply put in difficult positions. My heart goes out to them - stay strong (: No matter what, all the shit will be over soon enough, and eitherway, life is full of stupid, awful, selfish people, and life is also full of challenges. Our only thing to do would be to grab the bull by the horns - and toss it back to the stone age (:

AMAZINGLY, Sunday was an awesome day at work - a good day, I must say. It was fun getting to relax, joke around, and be around eejits like Shakti and Collin. Nice people, who don't make me feel like I'm walking on glass.

OH AND SATURDAY WAS AWESOME, COS RIGHT DURING MY DINNER BREAK I HAD PEOPLE COMING TO VISIT ME - HEARTS, FREEQ AND THEIR SWISS FRIEND, HAKIM. It was damn right funny cos like over the PA, a member of the staff was calling me - then I called back, worried, only to find them tell me that "Oh, you're friends are here." WHATTHE.. hahahahaha, But I was so thankful. When they came, it was 10 minutes to my dinner break - so I had friends to dinner with. If not eat alone sia. AHAHAH, BASKET all they know is to ask me to let them use my staff discount. HHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH but its okay, I love them anyways.

Feeling better nowadays.

my feet hurts though. HAHAHA.

TODAY ALSO GOT WORK BITCHES. Come and usik(disturb) me if you like, make me layan (entertain) your every need. HAHAHA.

<3

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The ancient Mayans believed that the crust of the Earth was a thin layer which separated the real world and the spirit world. They believed that everything dies and goes into the Earth, and from the Earth comes new life. Regeneration.

Faith & Simplicity.

These past few days have been tiresome, but awesome at the same time. Things change, come and go - friendship, lovers, family, everything. Things just happen that way. But from it, you learn something new, something different - you feel things you never would without these experiences. You grow. You gain new friends, people you thought you'd never click with in that awesome way that you did. And that, friends, is life.

I never thought what Hearts said would've been true. But I guess, it can't be helped - when she told me, I was in lala land, cloud nine - whatever you call it. When I was in my moments of consistent bliss and joy and happiness, she told me to be aware that it may only be temporal, like everything else in life. She reminded me that almost inevitably, what goes up, will come down; that there will come a day where I'd lose that reckless glee I felt I had attained - the one I thought was forever. I was super happy, like the "nothing will bring me down, blablabla" kind. But now, I guess it's turn has come to an end.

I long for that funny joy I had, that simplicity, and zest. But since the past few weeks, its just so hard to get back. I lost it when I was facing some dilemmas, some internal conflicts - things which I've yet to face head on. Part of me is too tired to look it in the eye, and part of me just can't bring myself to do it anymore. Ironic - when a friend has a problem, I say "you have to face it, before it snowballs, before you burst", and yet I just let myself create this ginormous avalanche.

This is how I feel in the deep recesses of my heart.

But on the outside, on the more superficial issues (for the most part), I'm still pretty alright. I'm happy most times, laughing sometimes, smiling always. It's just who I am. Pishposh. I just wish I would get over this, I dunno, phase and move on.

Its like, regeneration, y'know. I want all the bad stuff to go into the Earth, and from the Earth, the birth of all things lovely. But from where I'm standing, I see chaos.

Bring it.

It's like this awesome weather we've been having. Who would've thought that yesterday, Superman, America and I would be drenched wet (despite being umbrella-ready), in our WHITE blouses, laughing our asses off and shivering in the farking cinema. Good times (:

Sigh. I know. I laugh one second, I cry the next. Like I'm ferturded. Schizo.

Oh well.

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I've been very icky wicky recently, and honestly very on off. But that's life right?

SUNDAYS I'M IN LOVE

Well not really, but well I spent 2 Sundays in a row with Hearts! :D Awesome Possum. I bought a whole bunch of stuff I tell my self I need (but obviously if it needs telling....). But its all good. I kinda miss my friends a lot, so its nice to wind down a bit? Yeap. I just need that mode once in a while to be able to act stupid, shut down/screensaver, anything - just laugh and stuff. Things that make me smile. Cos I think part of me just realised that I'll be working for the next few months, and I'm kinda overwhelmed with thoughts of HOW I'm going to manage my time.

SATS. SATS. SATS. SATS. I cannot forget that I'm taking SATS. I don't have ANYTHING to help me prepare. Frucccck.

Just some pictures...







Today... I still came to school. And fuck, really - please do not come to SAJC. Omgosh, I think the world would be much better off without another 1000 kids under the good ole.... oh well whatever.. I swear, such a turd. That word, doesn't even cut it I think? Yeah. Basket. But anyways, school wasn't too bad. Hung out with the retainees, then hung out with the class, then hung out with Julien and helped her classmate with his I&R, then hung out with Julien+Adilah at IKEA (alexandra rd). DAMN FUN. We played. We laughed. We bought things. I need to revamp my room, and I got my (not so) little elves ready to help, at my disposal. HAHAHAH. Wah shit sia. I like super duper CHEAPO sia - everything I bought either costs 90c each or like super cheap hahahahahahhahaha. Oh well, budget.

Okay, lets see if tomorrow's a better day. I have to go cos muther's pissed. Mwahahah.

i miss you a lot, just fyi. really. gone were the days where we used to heck care and laugh and talk about stupid shit all night long. and to the other you, that I miss too - i shouldn't be missing you and yet i do. sigh

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