For the better good of my academia, which is in deep, deep, deep need of some actual full blown studying, concentration and focus. Of which I'm sure I'm capable of. So here goes.

See you in about... 3 weeks.
No internet, unless its for work. Though I'll tweet. So you can read it if you want. Hahaha. (Chey, i'm totally in my own world, where there's actually people who follows my blog..haha). Okay.

Ciao bella.
A bientot!

ps: what's really cool is that I posted the pic above (which is totally mine fyi with the help of poladroid) on the "Be Poladroid" group on Flickr, and people like actually viewed it and someone "favourite"d it. Woah <3

pps: enjoy this whilst I'm away.

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I'm bingeing on everything I love: good music, good vocals, good meaning. Sigh. It gets me thinking a lot about love, life, everything. I was stuck on X-Factor for a while on youtube, and well, there's a fabulous contestant that I'd definitely be supporting, but at the same time there's also so many many meaningful performances. There's this one guy who's singing for his brother (who's passed on) and his nephew. It was just so beautiful. It got me thinking about my own sister and her niece. To imagine the worst. If anything like that were to happen, I'd be lost, but I'd be determined to show my dear niece what a wonderful person her mother is. Well, regardless, I'll definitely tell my niece what a great mom she's got.

I'm stuck on great songs, really. Some really really beautiful talented people - my only wish is to be able to do what they're doing. Right now, I'm so in love with this song - it's all about the lyrics.

Just enjoy. Reflect. But enjoy (:

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I had a totally random day today, but well it was still awesome. I finally went to catch the Time Traveler's Wife. Reviewing it, I feel the actors were exactly what anyone would have imagined Claire and Henry to have been. Do not expect to get the ickygooey feeling of satisfaction from this movie. Like the book, Niffenegger pens a love story free from any archetype one would relate to the idea of romance - really. Believe me, beyond maybe 2 second glimpses of cliches, this story has very little cliches (for the lack of a better word) - instead filled with so much heartwrenching moments. It was just an honest book. I do wish there were more things they could've covered in the movie, but a 2 hour time limit literally limits what you can have in, especially since Niffenegger is delightfully verbose.

It always makes me cry.

I feel so bad inside reading it - not feel horrid, in the sense, but it makes me feel, really feel. Feel the reality of relationships, love, loss, everything. The fragility of life. The most amazing part about it is that unlike all the love stories we read about or hear of, its not about the perfect person - Henry is far from the perfect person, as is Claire. Its not like a typical Edward Cullen-Prince Charming-Romeo-Mr Darcy perfect lover thing going on, but very much all about finding the perfect person for you. As Claire did for herself. And Henry for himself. Its not about that suave, charming, athletic, intelligent, talented, well-mannered perfection that we tend to chase in our minds. Its just about finding that one person who loves you in all your entirety, loves you for who you are above all else, the one who'll perish without you or you him. The one who'll you love beyond time and eternity.

I envy and respect those who have found this, and understood this kind of love (:

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Oh after the movie with Firqin, I met Adel for an American universities talk. Gets me inspired again.


Study Hard, everyone. (Me too. sigh)
Stay strong <3

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I re-watched Iron Man and OMGOSH I think I died yet again. I don't care how old he is, what life he's led; Robert Downey Jr. is the bestest!

Here was me talking about him last time the first time I watched "Iron Man" about the same time last year! HAHA.

He like ZOMG can - so slick, so cool, I swear my heart just pumped so hard in my chest of excitement thanks to TONY SPARKS!!!!!!!!! :D HAHAHA.

Today, I went to school. Sat through about THREE darn hours of Literature. I swear, I think I died you know. Brain DEAD. After that, taught JT sampling. Damn funny with a bucketloads of jokes. Hahaha. Then went to airport to send the mom off to Saudi Arabia for her mini-pilgrimage, ergo umrah. It was so funny. I felt like was I was in Malaysia's airport - so many malay/muslim people that me and my brother cracked a bucket of jokes!

There after, I met with Lee at the Starbucks T2 Departure. Had OOZEELICIOUS WARM CHOCOLATE CAKE. Wah, the bomb! We studied a bit then I left to meet Adel at Tanah Merah mrt. We went to Geylang Ramadhan Bazaar. Shocked also! Its really damn different from what it was, but me and Adel, can one lah! :D

<33
I sleep now!!!!!

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A surprise isn't easy to have, but it sure does taste so sweet when everything goes as planned!

With people like Fred Perry, sometimes a surprise MIGHT backfire. HAHA. Like asking the surprisee, "Tomorrow meet at Woodlands mrt right?", when the surprisee does not know we're coming down to her place, as planned with her family, to surprise her for her eighteenth birthday. But, then again, the whole thrill of the execution of a surprise party is for glitches like these to occur, I suppose.

Hearts 18th Birthday surprise went according as planned. Everything was great - the "Oh my god?!" from Hearts, the yummy food, the charades, the "CHARLIE'S ANGEL FULL TH-E-RRR-O-T-TELL", the TABOOO, the yummy ice-cream cake, present giving... it was all good (: I'm glad we all took our time to do it cos it was very very much worth it, really (: Especially the J2s - it was lovely.

The only BUMMMER is that my camera is acting up and I somehow couldn't manage to catch quality pictures like I usually am able to - almost every pic was blur or had an element of blurness, mind you. SobSob. ):

Eitherway, it was a good fruitful night(:

EGAD tomorrow there's like Lit Lectures (ew. really. ew. not about the lit part but just the whole prospect of going to school tomorrow. ew). Sigh, I wish I could stay in and wake up late and just enjoy my rest+study schedule and not have to go to school ): Oh well, I can mope about it, but I'd still gotta do what I gotta do.

Better go wash my face now! Bonne Nuit(:

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Because she sings the menu at Prata House.

Because she texted me to tell me she had my handphone. (take your time to digest this)

Because she didn't scream at me when we had a hairdressing fiasco.

Because she makes me laugh all the darn time.

Because she was so worried about Econs she cried.

Because she teases me all the time.

Because she's infatuated with my.. hahaha.

Because she has Ramli Sarip hair in the video we made.

Because she tells me the little things.

Because I feel lonely when she doesn't come to school.

Because she feels lonely when I don't come to school.

Because she's thoughtful and kind.

Because she supports me.

Because she's honest with me, even if I don't want to hear it.

Because she gets temperamental once in a while.

Because she's my saving grace, this year (:

Happiest Birthday, Hearts. You deserve happiness, joy and all the peace the world can offer.

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SUPER DUPER! Yesterday was a fun-filled day for sure ~ with a few ups and downs! But its all awesome possum!!!!!!!

In the morning, we had SAJC MUSIC AWARDS for assembly - me, amirah and atiqah ergo Halfway Alley took part in the competition and well we won! We had a helluva time, really, practicing and like laughing our asses off! :D In the afternoon, me, Firqin and Hayati went to watch a movie! Actually, it was intended to watch "The Time Traveler's Wife" but they only had 2 seats in the cinema left so we walked down, (i, more so than the rest) moped - and then decided to watch another movie "The Proposal"!!! I swear, that movie was hilarious and lovely! AND GOD the whole cinema gasped when Ryan Reynolds took off his shirt! HAHA In the evening/night, I headed down to town to buka with my bosom buddies - YMERS. Though there wasn't a large number of us ): But it was awesome nonetheless!

A lovely friday, indeed!

P.S: font change due to Hayati's woes. ): I miss the old font. hahahah!

pps: photos of FB! :D

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I have to say this out loud, because right now I'm filled with disbelief. There's only one more term left in 2009. Can you believe it? Time has really really really passed by so fast. It feels like only yesterday I told Ms Hon over the phone that I've decided to not take LUEs and just retain. It feels like just yesterday I was writing my farewell messages to all my friends. It feels like only yesterday I met the most awesome bunch of people ever during the headstart programme, found my footing in school, and a support system as a retainee. It feels like only yesterday I was staying back with the most awesome bunch of people for CNY Dikir Barat performance, formulating the lamest script I could, laughing at the lack of coordination of some people *cough*Hilmi, Firqin*cough*, the funniest antics of some and the overall high of a great performance. Everything just feels like yesterday.

Just when I thought 2009 couldn't go any faster, I realised that it's almost coming to an end. Wow. Imagine. I swear, it's dreadfully fast, and before you know it, it's 2010 and A levels, so on so forth. Whoa..

I was backtracking my posts to the start of this year, and looking through what's going on, how I was and how the year started off! And well, I must say I really was really scared starting 2009 where I was; it was hard. The uncertainties and everything, but now I think, the year couldn't be better. I'm a lot more academically sound than I've ever been last year. Sure, there's bucketloads to improve on still, but nonetheless, I think retaining is most definitely the best decision I've made in a hell of a long time. But like emotionally, it was hard. Really.

So after all the drama the year has cumulated, the friends that started off my year on the right foot - the MRC, Class B - I've got loads to be grateful for (: Can just look at my january/february 2009 posts, I must say having friends that was there to listen to your woes and understand them on a level that nobody else could was the only thing I needed at that time. Thanks to all, especially the malays (hee) for being dramatik(nadia), blurrrry(firqin), unique(adilah), LouD!(fezra), sweeet(izzati), jocular(rasul), droll-y(fred) and most of all delightful(hearts!) ~ really helped my start my year right.

I've still got one last lap to run and I just hope I make it a good one.

<3

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I love this photo - found it on DeviantArt (as always) and I wish I could post it up as it's original size and do it justice! Its just way pretty. Haha, yes I know, I love a lot of photos. I swear I painstakingly pick every photo you see featured in my posts - it must mean something to me, and affect me in one way - I just hope it's as appreciated by others as much as I appreciate it. We all need a little bit of Art in our lives, no matter what anyone says (:

There are moments in my life where I just forget about being nice, or couldn't care enough to be nice. These moments usually occur in the deep recesses of my heart (or brain, cos you could always do with imagination!) and they can be really horrid thoughts and opinions; things that I'd never say aloud to anyone, except to those whom I know loves me unconditionally.

Sigh.

I don't know; the "on" button to these thoughts were switched when I was looking through a friend's Facebook. Get that, a friend. Sometimes, albeit friend or family, you can't help but feel annoyed/unjust/jealousy with another person's talents, opportunities, intelligence, whatsnots. I get really unpleased with myself when I visit this dark cold place in my heart where I compare my life to another person, thinking bitter thoughts, thinking that God has given this person everything, that life's just unfair. Then I check myself. It's a dreadfully difficult feat, really, but it has to be done. I check myself, and scold myself. I force myself to remember the lovely things that I do have and remember the friends I have, the secrets we share, the laughter we.. oh well you get the picture. I remind myself to be grateful. But above all, I remind myself, that nobody's life is perfect. Not one bit.

I used to think a friend of mine -not exactly ONE friend, but a cumulate of all my once-thought-to-have-everything-friends - was just dreadfully lucky. This friend has everything money can buy, this friend has riches, looks, talents - you'd think that God was darn happy when this friend was born. But well, behind every person there is a story. Be it that this person has lost a loved one, or this person comes from a broken home, or this person might've suffered from a disease, every person has a story.

I may not wanna believe it, but I'm pretty lucky. I'm lucky I've never had a disease or illness (God forbid I'd ever have *cross fingers*), I have never had to beg for food, or money, I've never had to live in a brothel, I've never had to go without necessities, or even some of the material goods I have. It's just so easy to count the shortcomings, because they bite at us, everyday.

Count your blessings instead(:

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Sometimes I forget, you know, to take life by the horns and live it to the fullest. The past weeks was a little bit grueling for me, and I can't explain why. I know why, I just can't explain it. Its something that's too complex, so I'm not going to bother. But either way, I forgot my happiness mantra and I think I've kinda found it back again. Slowly, baby steps, I'll find my way back up again.

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