Satu harapan

One hope. I've only got a flicker of hope, for things to change, to finally go MY way. Why in this world is it that things never happen the way i want it to? Life never really listens to me. My life is like the stubborn five year old that you see at the NTUC not wanting to put down the bag of sweets and listen to his mother. The mother being me, and the five year old being my life. I know, who am i to be ungrateful; God gave me so many things in life. But there are some things, things i've been wanting for years now, but these dreams refuse to come true.

Saya sedang tonton filem indonesia - "Butterfly", baru sahaja habis setengah filem itu. Saya memang gemar menonton filem indon - lebih-lebih lagi kalau filem romantis belia. Saya tidak tahu kenapa, tetapi sememangnya saya rasa amat gembira menonton filem sebegitu. Yang sangat mengelirukan adalah hampir kesemua filem-filem yang saya tontoni mempunyai jalan cerita di mana terdapat tiga pasang kawan karib - dua perempuan satu lelaki. Amat normal lah jalan cerita begitu.

But i am caught totally off-guard. I swear to god. Oh, my, lord. I love this movie. I mean despite it being a typical indon movie which drags at some parts, its totally nice; i mean, at the end, i was so, wow-ed. (the above paragraph is just about the movie and like my love for indon films)

Its not therapeutic at all, watching these films - they either leave me in a greater depth of misery than i previously was, or they're just so, lovely, which makes me envious. HAH. Yes anyone who knows me well enough would also know that i am THE hopeless romatic. They don't just use 'hopeless' for fun. I swear, really hopeless. I mean, i'm such a melt-into-a-puddle-of-goo kind of person. Which is why i am deeply envious of those in love.

Why why why is it that god built me this way, and yet my life refuses to follow the way i am built?

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