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Thursday, July 24, 2008 @ 20:41

Don't stop me now, i'm having such a good time, i'm having a ball..

yes, i'm living my Queen obsession, yet again. Gosh, Freddie Mercury is the SEX. Though he can't exactly be the sex for me, cos he wasn't exactly straight. EITHERWAY, he's sooooooo good. and so dead too. HAIX, talent dies out so fast. The coming generation will NEVER know what they missed.

Anyways, i'm not very happy with myself recently. I mean really.

If i was a true friend, we'd sit down, and i'd talk to you about it.

if i was a true friend, i wouldn't let these things slide.

if i was a true friend, i'd make it all better.

But now, its like i'm not bothered anymore, or its just that i've got no energy for it. That, or i can't seem to see the point anymore. At some time, it does make me feel like telling them, 'gosh, you're 17 already. grow up'. I totally get it - i'm not perfect or anything. But there comes a time when some way people behave just shove me back into secondary one - where if people behave the way they did, its hell lot more forgivable. HAIX. I used to have a lot of tenacity for doing this, making things better, solving problems.

But i swear, i've got no time for all these things.

I wish (well i was about to say i thought, but well its a bit to late for that now, aye?) that jc wasn't filled with any of this crap; the power struggles,pw, the bitchiness (and in all honesty, from me too. I've been extra extra bitchy of late, NEVER that way in secondary school. not this bad. haix.), pw, the assholes who don't think about anyone but themselves, pw, and wait did i mention PW?

i just want my jc life to be a fruitful one, without all that immature secondary school crap. really. I don't mind having fun and going nuts (we're still kids at heart after all) BUT there's a limit, that even i can tolerate. And i can tolerate a lot. I want to just study, have friends, enjoy, chill.. i mean really.

Sometimes i think the only reason i'm becoming more bitchy is because i'm around people who're just asking for it.

god, i hope its just a phase.