You know, sometimes, somethings happen that leave you in a whirlpool of questions and dilemmas. *Sigh* I really had a bad day, Wednesday. Can't say why in particular, but it's taken a toll on my happiness level. I'm still a happy camper - I mean all the NSP is just filled with so much laughter, its crazy. Battlefield ape seh? Barack Obama.. Firqin delivery service.. But it feels like the inside joy has seeped out of my skin. to think its family that does this to you *sigh* Help me find my happy bone?

I'm just trying to be honest with myself. When I'm not home, I'm able to find joy in my friends, think about solving others' problems, maths/econs theories.. but once I return home, I'm left clueless on how to solve my own issue. Tears can only get you so far right? I have so darn many things to be happy about but that ONE big issue at home is somehow able to make all the good stuff disappear. I'm afraid of looking at it in the eye. God, give me strength and enlightenment, please

Think: happiness.

Firstly, I <3 the picture above! I mean its just great! I love taking pictures of everything and anything, and I can't wait to go on a photo-venture, me and an slr. We, me and slr, will be on a great adventure to capture the world in all its glory, from my point of view. someday, someday (:

OHOH my lovely niece had her first day of big girl school on Thursday in Aberdeen! Oh gosh, she looked lovely in uniform - I'm so excited for all the stories she'll share with me, this new part of her life. To think it feels like just yesterday that this bub was crying in my hands in her living room in Toronto because her mom *rolls eyes to my sister* left me with her, ad hoc, for about 2 hours when the bub didn't even know who I was. It feels like just yesterday she stood on a suitcase in my living room, singing "DOH-OH-OH-OH" (doe a deer) to her aunt, uncles, parents and gramps - she was the Led Zeppelin that night, and we her groupies! It feels like only yesterday she played hide and seek with me in Toronto, and when I go "Lara..where are you...", she'll go "I'M HERE!". Hahaha. It just feels like yesterday she was telling everyone about her plight - "Crab pinch me!" and ordering "Ah Kong, take water make sandcastle!". But this bub is a bub no more - she's five now, the big one, and she's growing up fast before my eyes. I'm honored to be her aunt (:


How this little bub became..


this lovely girl, I don't know (:

I lost my phone today - BUT managed to get it back!Thank God But at a price - I missed the USA UK university talk ): Oh gosh, I don't know what's worse. I really wanted to go for it. Maybe I can ask help from that teacher.

Me, Hearts and Superman went to have our last supper. We went somewhere at Bukit Timah, near Beauty World. Yes I get a kick from saying BEAUTY WORLD! I tried to navigate him there, but he chickened out. LOLS. I realised I'm really a Singapore noob, but I figure that its only cos I never had the need to go venture around - my friends lived near me last time and I've always schooled in the central area of Singapore, so forgive my noobness :D We had one helluva supper, for sure. There was so much food, and the bill was, *cough*don'ttalkaboutit*cough* and well we had great fun :D



I'm really excited for the fasting month, Ramadhan. I'm excited for the inner peace I get from it, actively practicing my faith and the love and care I feel during this month from Him. I feel extra special during the fasting month, which isn't just a fast from food, but its a fast from desires and all, and I feel great, making a conscious effort to not chase after materialism or worldly pleasures. It just Him and me, and a million others lah. But you get the picture. It's a time of great enlightenment for me, cos I find something new and interesting everytime, I just can't wait. To be peaceful, and know that you're extra extra cared for. Haix. Of course, it won't be easy. But I'll try my best, of course (:

Oh, I'll post up some photos from the weeks before (:

RIGHT and I tried my ULTIMATE FIRST Redbull on Thursday. WOAH. I felt like I just defied my parents, since my mom never lets me drink it. HAHA.

I think I've got stuff to say, but I just can't remember. Oh well :D

<3

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