Hmm, Fridays aren't going as planned - I'm not feeling the buzz. Like I do on friday nights. But instead I'm feeling really overwhelmed. I have a few things to do tomorrow - one of which's leaving me a BIG nervous wreck. AHH. I ought to be used to it by now, but I can't help myself. No matter how many times I do it, the butterflies come swarming through and I start to need to pee, and my knee shakes - BET YOU DIDN'T KNOW my knee shakes like crazy when I'm nervous.

So much going through my mind right now... I can't seem to organize my thoughts or my life for that matter in the manner that I am used to. You know, if you imagine my brain to be a little library, my thoughts are all shelved meticulously in alphabetical order, arranged according to themes: FICTION, non-fiction, reference, Young Adult.. you know the drill. Now imagine someone dropped a "fat boy" on that library like in HiroshimaNagasaki - and there you have it: my mind.

ARH. Hate it when I'm vulnerable-ish.

MSA results fully back. Am I happy with it? Hmm, that's actually really hard to say. Out of my H2s, only one is the same one i took last year, and my H1 is different. But still, in my head, especially after sitting for the papers, I know I could do better. I'm not trying to be horribly annoying - one of those people you wanna slap if they're complaining when they didn't do too bad - but like honestly can't help but crave for BETTER. And somehow, with my downfall in literature, I cannot help but feel very sad!!

For friends (you know who you are) who didn't do well, J1 or J2, MSAs or BTs - Don't give up. It may suck big time, really. Especially to those who studied their butts and didn't do well enough or worse, see people around them who didn't study but do better than them - it's hard to take in now, and everything seems to be really horrid BUT do not give up. Easier said than done, I know, but really, hard work, determination and drive all PAYS OFF tremendously in the end of the day - I know some friends who are the embodiments of these pay-offs.