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Thursday, February 05, 2009 @ 23:08
Sometimes the rainbow comes, but everything else is fuddled up. I'm finally back - its been only a short while, but it feels like forever though. I feel like I've been keeping my emotions in for a while - weird (: Anyways, so many things have been happening since the last time I blogged. Like for one - I've grown more comfortable with being in my predicament, no longer caring what others think, not too much that is. I mean, its still partially difficult to not see the ones I love so dearly - Chee, Jo, Kwoi, the rest of S26 - everyday, but I knew that that would be the part of the bargain that I would have to bear. I mean, at the same time, being a retainee has helped me do one thing - Start Fresh. I mean, like a freshly cleaned towel fresh. It feels good. I mean, at the same time, I'm enjoying myself, and learning to appreciate tonnes of things I took for granted - studying being one of them. And I get to rethink my decisions which could've been the cause of myself being in the predicament I am in. Then of course, there's the tonnes of new friends I've made - the retainee students. I'm really grateful to have that bunch of friends. I mean we're not ALL tight like this *cross fingers* but well we make our time with each other worthwhile. I mean, seriously, it feels great to be around people who truly understand your troubles, the difficulties your facing - everything. And i mean truly . That's my class - Class B; in the PHOTO OF THE MOMENT! Oh and well, recently for the CNY Celebrations, the MCS performed a dikir barat for the school, and honestly speaking it was truly a wonderful time spent with friends, learning about my culture and being really really proud of it! I've made good friends along the way, making a fool of ourselves onstage, etc! Oh well, it was definitely good times! One of the most important thing that is ongoing now would be 2009 Orientation ! NOT that i'm not orientated with the school. I really wanted to go, cos I didn't get to experience Orientation. AND WELL, I also wanted to meet the j1 batch, which would obviously be my peers, and if I'm lucky enough, one of my greatest friends! I mean, of course I want the J1s to enjoy it more, and participate more - it is THEIR orientation more than mine, when push comes to shove! However, the other day, really before orientation begun, the school admin thought that it would be better if we didn't go for orientation. Apparently, previous years' feedback of retainees going for orientation showed that well, it wasn't something SOME people enjoyed. However, our batch of retainees really wanted to go so the school created this "middle ground consensus" which many of us thought was just Its been great, I'm in OG22, and they're really a wonderfully adorable OG as far as the people are concerned. I'm comfortable with them, and well, I enjoy sharing with them my point of view and my experiences with them, hopefully helping them choose a path that suits them best as they carry on in the journey of their lives. I'll have more details up soon, but for now just some pictures! ((: I swear this year isn't that easy - honestly. I mean there's still so much things to get done, so much studying to do, so much stress - sometimes I wonder if it'll all be worth it. But then I look into my diary, and realise that it all is there, and its up to me to make the best of it (: <3 back to top? |