I am allowed to be a teeeeeensy bit excited.. right??

You know SOO many bad horrible and sad things have been happening these past few days. It really is quite tiresome. Tiresome because sometimes I don't know how to handle it all. I mean I'm hopping from one situation to another. On one hand, things seem to be going good, but on the other hand, my world seems crashing. I'm not like depressed or anything, just observant right now. So many positives and negatives. They're all supposed to balance out, but somehow I feel guilty in the process. Am I allowed to be excited for Prague, when at the same time my family and I are mourning the loss of a loved one? (grr. so uncool yo.)

ANYWAYS, still, I think I'm allowed to be feel both sad and happy at the same time, to both given situations. Right? I mean, I respect both, and I accept both situations with all my heart. So I shouldn't feel guilty. *nods head*

So yes, I am heading off to Prague, Czech Republic, formerly known as Czechoslovakia. Its like 2.30am, and I only just finished packing like...99% I should say. Only because I'm collecting my jeans and my gown from the tailor tomorrow morning. And to top off with all the current frenzy, tomorrow's HARI RAYA HAJI! Or should i say today? either way..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA, KEPADA SEMUA. JANNAH SENTIASA MENGINGATIMU DAN MENYAYANGIMU, WALAU DIMANAPUN ANDA BERADA. SEMOGA ALLAH TA'ALAA MEMBERKATKAN HIDUP MU, DAN SEMOGA KAMI SEMUA SENTIASA MENGINGATI KEPENTINGAN AIDILADHA INI. DAN KEPADA YANG SEDANG BERHAJI, DOAKAN JANNAH :D DAN SEMOGA KEMBALI DENGAN SELAMAT. JANNAH AKAN DOAKAN SEMUA MUSLIM, SEMOGA HIDUP KITA PANJANG UMUR, MURAH REZEKI, AMAN DAN DAMAI. AMIIN. :D

This raya would be difficult for the family I'm sure. The pain and the sting of loss hasn't yet been relieved, so surely many memories of her would prick tears into our eyes. I just pray that she's where she belongs, and that she's received the peace and serenity she duly deserves. (Times like this makes me hate living a causeway away from my family D:)

PRAGUE.

Did I pack enough? Did I pack too much? WILL I FREEZE MY ASS OFF? zomgzomgzomgzomg. Exciting. Yet weird. AND scary, cos of the competitions. But I'm sure it'll be more than memorable. It'll be a legacy. HAHAHA i'm rattling rubbish now.

I should sleep! :D nitesnites.

OH and i lost my phone, so to those who know i love you by the buckets, CIAO, AND SEE YOU SOON! :D

and sofia! boooooooooook twilight! :DDD

love!

p/s: i will post up the choir pics soon! hurhur! back to top?