Haix.
I didn't get to meet the kings today >.< That was pretty depressing, cos i was really looking forward to it, telling EVERYBODY about it, but cos they changed the meeting place, i couldn't meet them, at least i wasn't able to do so in time. I really really do miss them truckloads.

I'm still thinking about love and everything. Today, other then not being able to meet the kings, was a pretty funny day lah. I "broke up" with my "boyfriend" HAHAH. Well joel's my pretend boyfriend, from the APRIL FOOLS joke we played on Anqi (i think cheeken's gonna post about it! but i know anqi has posted PART of it in her blog!) so yesterday, we acted out our "relationship"... From the whole pseudo-taiwanese drama scenes - "I LIKE YOU, PLEASE ACCEPT MY LETTER" *BOWS down* to partial initiation of our relationship, and today we introduced a THIRD PERSON and we finally did the break up at POPcafe. hahahah it was so funny, i think me and jo has kept anqi and cheeken and other onlookers well-entertained. Oh BUT during chemistry practical, we realised we didn't have a "couple picture", so we did a very husband and wife pose. Chin tau, anqi and jo also took photos of me and chee yang, which were very funny.. Hopefully i can put them up soon! Oh but for the crux of the practical, it was pretty fun! As always, (i have no idea why, but in JC suddenly i can't do practicals the way i was able to in Cedar) i'm one of the last to begin. But, i was also pretty careful and conscientious.

which means: NO STAINED SHIRTS, NOT WET ANSWER PAPERS, NO WET QUESTION PAPERS, NO GETTING SPRAYED AT :D

AND not to mention, i was also able to get the titration proper, even though i was able to only once, i actually got it, without like screwing up anything else.


Do you think its too late to start some resolutions? Well yeah, i'm four months behind the official day of the new year, but i don't think its ever too late to begin making some plans, especially plans for change.

SO here are some of my resolutions:
- Study consistently ( i actually typed 'study more consistently' but i realise in order for me to be MORE consistent, i've gotta have already begun studying >.<)
- Stop being overly self-conscious (ITS a freaking paranoia i tell you, its like a psychological disease..!)
- FOCUS on the bigger picture! (As for A'S. As for A's. As for A's)
- TRAIN UP so i can stay in touch rug!
- Sleep better hours
- LESS VULGARITIES (homg its like suddenly being in sa, with my friends, my mouth suddenly talks, way way way before i can stop the words from coming out of my mouth)
- To be myself, and not screw up any friendships i've newly forged.
- breathe.

YEAH, oh well.

Sometimes i wish i can be as confident about myself like some of the people around me. I mean, to many people, i'm confident and loud and all, but really, its just a facade... inside is this whole frenzy of paranoia, thoughts, but well, it is beginning, slowly but surely, to improve.. ONE DAY (:

Anyways, its so true. I am in love, with love. When i see simple things a person does for their other half, simple gestures of love people share with one another, i must say, i reek of envy. I have never had that "love that blows you away" i see surrounding many people, and i just am very envious, of any one who has experienced it. I'd love to love deeply, truly, tenderly, and passionately. But my time has yet to come.

When it finally does, the world will know

for now, i'm always and forever will be all smiles (:






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