man i'm so confused.

i have never been this confused over something that really matters to me, gosh.
why oh why the confusion?

i have always thought the ac brand of education was something i wanted, really bad. I mean, at first it was just me wanting to do IB as my tertiary education, so ACIB.
then when i got my jae posting and thought about it, i realised that maybe doing theatre studies and drama would be a good thing for my future; wanting to apply to drama school maybe in the future?

but today, i took my first step into my jae school, as a Saint, at SAJC.
i had a pretty great time, the mass dance being my favourite; mark was a great partner! lol, i had a great time, the people i met were so fun to be with, it was all, goooood!

halfway i had to go to acjc to appeal in (and i came back to SAJC after that) and whoa, i had the weirdest, creepiest vibe from the school; i suddenly became reduced to a childlike image of myself. There i was, looked at weirdly, maybe even stared at. I mean i can't say i expected anyone to go WOO HI HOW YOU DOING, but i didn't feel the love. Tiff convinces me that its cos the school was empty on today, so not many people, so it feels a little cold. I don't know, if cold means that i felt like a alien stepping into the Tibetian Himalayas, then yes, i felt cold.

The worst part is, i submitted my appeal. WHAT IF i get there, and i become a miserable loner? WHAT IF i don't and my future changes forever. WHAT IF, i don't wanna leave sa after all?

All these thoughts run through my mind, like WOAH. gosh. i hope God chooses my fate, what's best for me, not what i want, so that i can learn what i need in my life. I leave it in His hands and pray. Will He be prejudiced at the christian college part? i hope not. See the light?



SAINTS! UP & ON!



MY OGA- Angie!



our Timetable for the week!!!



OG 17 - WOOTS! incomplete tho!


TIFFY - my partner in crime!



elyssa - omg, 12 years!!?!


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