When you put things into perspective, either I move on fast.. or just that I am bloody resilient. I think it's the latter. HAHA. Anyways, not the point. Point is, I'm happy, as of this hour and this moment and this lifetime, but then I may not be for the next few hours, cos life's just unpredictable like that. I feel like the girl in picture (kop-ed from deviantart btw) - in that moment in time everything seems so joyful and serene, but once you land, you're back in reality. But we won't bother about that for now - right now, I'm just a girl with the innocence of a 4 year old, appreciating the night sky and wishing there were more stars.

I'm excited for Baybeats 2009. I haven't done anything remotely cool in the past years (hahah, yes i just declared i'm not cool. bite me. hahaha) and well, Lady Gaga and Baybeats will be the best time to do that. Thank God baybeats is free of you'll see me begging the side of the roads in desperation for cash. Heh. But besides the point. I'm ready to immerse myself in good music, sweating my heart out and having my eyeliner smeared - who gives a rat's ass, its all about having the time of your life. (:

Tomorrow's my PESA 2009 competition. Gosh, I'm worried. I mean, I went looking up previous PESAs and how other people speak and I think that I just can't compare to the competition. The only thing that sets me out is that I'm not overly dramatic on stage. Good thing? Bad thing? God knows. With rock music in my head, what I'd like to do is go on stage in the SAJC blazer and stuff and just get a guitar and scream, and hammer the $800 guitar on the floor, pull a Freddie Mercury and do a dive into the audience. HAHA, I think I've been watching too many Warped Tour videos. But yeah, the rocker in me would like to let loose at the what may be prissy competition. Aiye. Everyone's telling me I'll be fine, but if you know me well enough, this paranoia and fear is so innate that I honestly can't help myself. Its just like my dying need to sing in the toilet - can't help it. HEH.

Oh which reminds me, I was doing a Katy Perry cum Beatles concert in the shower just now. The audience went willlllllllllllld! You could see my Herbal Essences shampoo jumping and see a moshpit of toothbrushes! Okay, maybe not but a girl can dream. Hahaha, but what I do know is that I had a lot of fun singing. I haven't sung in a while and it just felt so good. Oh and at the Choir Barby (as what Lee calls it) with the 2007 batch seniors, we sang our old songs. It almost made me cry. I don't know why I left choir - other than the obvious reasons: I'M JUST LAMENTING - because maybe not 100% of the time, but most of the time I had a lot of fun (and stress) with choir, singing songs I never thought I'd ever sing and just working together with a bunch of people who loves what I love doing too - Singing.

Music makes you lose control

The other day Freeq and Hearts went through my song's list and decided that I have good song taste (at least that's what I thought they meant. HAHA) and we spent some time listening to a bunch of lovely songs - Meiko, Eric Hutchinson, Jack Johnson, Katy Perry, Duffy, Julian Perretta, the list goes on and on. Its ironic, cos I can't remember lyrics if it cost me my life, but I'm a lyrics person, somehow the words of these singers are able to touch my soul in many ways I never thought they could (:

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard,
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things,
Like a shoebox of photographs,
With sepiatone loving,
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart ,
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving,
I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together back to top?