THANKYOU

OK, firstly thank you ISA.
for... Going through all that trouble, even though it didn't help. "I can't right click in the box you're supposed to type stuff in.." haha ok. Thanks for the effort, obviously! But i really apologise, cos i CAN'T TELL YOU! NO SIREE!! jangan merajuk ah! It was my resolution of the year to be not easily broken, hahah. you can't get to me! despite all efforts, even Irsyaad fails! haha

Secondly, thank you SUN!
Where Isa has failed, you succeed! HAHAH. sun meng you rock! hahah

Thirdly, thank you MICHELLE
you have lemme see, decoded for me the codes that i soooo DON'T get, and still don't get. SCREW html

ANYWAYS.
i have introduced, and ignited sofia's obsession for sean faris. IF YOU STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND, here's more of him


this is only, ONLY his side profile


I'd just DIE if he was on the roof of my house!


Yeah, off with the shirt


I said off with it!


Yes he's a boy!


He's what i think hercules would look like, or zeus, or EROS! YES eros~


For this, i hate Alexa vega.


Yes, yes. hormones rage! haha. gosh he's so hot. I hope like the bidadara waiting for me in heaven all look like him!!! hahaha


Anyhow. Its bahas today, but my parents are not allowing me to go. My dad can't send me, and they don't want me going alone! What the.. oh nevermind. But YM, can! i so don't get it!! arh.

Today is my mom's birthday! SING WITH ME
"happy bday to you,
happy bday to you
happy bday to Jaye's mom,
happy bday to you!"

i have no idea what the itinerary is today, but its going to be alright.
070707 live earth!


OH i have succumb to the reality that i just can't fall for someone who's related to me. In the words of all my friends "incest"! NO LAH COME ON. its not like we're related RELATED. we're just related. oh. but he's fine. TO MY EYes.HAHHA.
Seriously though.

I have thought somewhat about my future, and i don't think i will actually fall in love. NO strike that. I don't think i will ever be in a relationship, where my love is returned. Don't get me wrong, its not like i'm looking down on myself or suffering a self-esteem problem. Is just that i think that i won't allow myself to. I mean how many people do i know are in a blissful relationship? close to none. Like for real, even my own parents stand against it.
(for those of you who actually read this, and actually follow my life story, my mom will be moving out soon. HAh, that's what i said last year, december. HMM...)
anyhow, its almost as though true love don't exist.
Its funny though.
Since i was a kid, i wanted to do everything my sister did. Go to cedar, CHECK. go overseas. Marry the age she married, which is 18 going on 19.(it wasnt a shotgun wedding !) EVERYTHING. But when i met ambitious people like Sofia, Liki, people who don't wanna be held back by marriage and kids, wanted to chase their career, it made me think twice. Like, i know a part of me always wanted to be a bachelorette, living in a great studio apartment, alone, with the liberty of wearing a shirt and boxer shorts all day long without getting scolded, etc. Is being in a relationship really a great thing? Maybe i should get to the top of my career, something that may be really hard to do with excess baggage filled with kids and a husband.

I want a family, that perfect family, but i don't wanna be one of those women, who are forced to sacrifice their career, to help their husbands chase theirs, etc.HMPH. Can a woman really have it all??

Adel constantly reminds me, i'll turn 18 in 2 years, 19 in three. Am i going to jump, or take the road to Singleton.

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